Dreaming of You...

bgong blog.. paalam lumang blog..

2005-09-11T09:32:00.000-07:00

sa mga nkakamiss sakin sa blogspot... ahahhaa.. at feeling nio ay dead nko sa blogging community... hahaha... may bgo kasi akong blog.. ahaha!! :)

http://minikeyk.blogspot.com

ayan.. naway masiyahan kayo..

2005-07-24T08:36:00.000-07:00

PRESENTING...

ang mga kabaklaan... kakulitan at huwala lng!!! hahaa!

about a boy... ahaha!

2005-05-23T05:59:00.000-07:00

WARNING:

if you have seen this person lurking anywhere near you... beware... he is armed and dangerous... you are suggested to vacate the premises immediately... this is not a drill.. i repeat.. this is not a drill... JOKE LANG!

WANTED

name: gerard cadano arriola AKA gerry

birthdate: sept. 17, 1987

location: dati tga batangas, ngaun taga qc na... pero madalas sa EGI taft towers

occupation: taga mutilasyon ng palaka...a oo.. bestfrend ko din pala.. full time job nya un eh.. haahha!

hobbies: golf, playing pc games and studying... ummm.. can i repeat that again? studying! :) nerd ka na ger.. joke lng.

about him:
bestfrend ko/ golfer dude/ chivalrous(ehem!)/mabait n bata/ relihiyoso/MASUNGIT!/asteegin ( cympre! bestpwend ko yan eh!)/mhilig sa mcflurry! at nuggets pla!/ mhilig sa basketball ( as if.. lht nmn ng guys dba?!?!)/ mhilig din sa cars :)/ mkulit (like me!)/ demanding... (uhmmm.. no comment)/ sweeet.. (daw).. joke lng/ matalino! ( khit ayaw nya aminin n matalino sya.. oo na.. tamad lng ako..)/ mahilig mg joke.. / funny! / aun lng po.. bow.

ahhh... la nkong maisip n pambola..! haha! pero assteeg tng bestpwend ko.. gsto ko lng sya i benta sa blog ko kaya mei sarili syang entry! hahaha! pssst! lam mo n un!

PS:

anyone interested to rendezvous with this GUY.. feel free to contact me... he is AVAILABLE... free.. cheap... ahhh.... and currently looking for a girlfriend! hehehe...just tag me!

the contents of this entry is the authorized by reyia enero, any fallacious, fabricated and fictious item found here of is within my intellectual property. i am not responsible for any use or misuse of any of the contents found in the said entry. thank you.

none

2005-05-22T07:14:00.000-07:00

i have nothing to write... im sooo bored... classes have strted again.. and then some... hayyy... when will this stop???? i dnt even know wat im talking about.. i think im already sleepy... ill.. go update next tym...

in counting....

2005-05-14T05:33:00.000-07:00

hmm.. wala lng.. sobrang tagal kao n ata d ngsusult dito... wala nman ako masulat... sobrang mttpos n ung summer... mei trabaho nko tlga... nkakapagod.. pero its sumthing that i have to do.. galing akong GK knina.. we tried t make a house... we trie ha... hehehe.
:D o wells... anyway.. ang hirap pla.. la lng.. :D hehehe. la lng. ayown.. wala akong masult... d ako compelled.. pagod lng ako sobra.. hayyy.. o wells...

i need....

2005-05-05T20:11:00.000-07:00

i need a reboot... kelngn ko ng mas mahaba png _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.... im not the type of person to lose it that easily... lord please help me... regain my sense of thinking and evaluation.. more importantly... i need patience... more patience.... as much as possible... ayokong mwalan nito... sana kayanin kooo.... i need more understanding.... san kaya nkkbili nito... klengn ko...

impulsive...

2005-05-04T10:23:00.001-07:00

out of sheer.. u dunno.. impulsiveness and depression and confusion.. i got my hair treated and cut.. and im really happy... la lng.. although i wsted... alot of money.. la ln... vanity struck me.. and it prevailed.. hayyy.. buti n to.. mei iba akong maiisip... keysa nmn kung ung iba.. n ewan.. hayyyy... i thnk its better to vent out my boredom in the guitar rather than... you knw.. stuff.. evil... hayy.. strum.. bye.

i am the evil incarnate, somebody kill me

2005-05-03T19:45:00.000-07:00

i accomplished one goal in my life last nyt.. and probably abolished one... hayyy.. i spent 4 hours playing "line to heaven..." yeah.. go reyia.. and here i thought that i could nver learn to play guitar... okei.. i purposely did not study for my exam... not that i didnt want to.... its just that i cant.... plus the fct that i cnt stop plying the guitar.. ( mental note for me: wala na sa mga characteristics ng ideal guy ko ung marunong magitara.... hahaha.. kasi kaya ko na... ) hayyy.... stupid me... didnt study for my long exam... wow... not good... apprently.. was still able to answer it.. damn true or false questions!!!... grrr..

in another context... i feel miserable.... la lng...u know hu u are... im really sorry.... i didnt mean to do watever i did.... u have every right to be angry and all... ( ooopsss... overshare.... ) .... blahblah..... ayun.... ayaw ko ng magsult... maiinis lng ako sa sarili... grrrr....

anyway.... wat happened to me last satrday???? for more info.. go to this...

"kia's blog"

SABOG!!!! literally... sya ng buhay ko... lasing lasing.... hahaha! pero nwala tama ko.. nung bglang nanganak si cahrs ng quadruplets! hahaha! loko kasi un e.. iinum.. d nmn kaya... hmmmp! ang hirap png alagaan... bad trip.... so far our teambuilding was soo masaya... hahaha! soooo... aun.. sana next tym meron ulit... wala lng....

di ako mapakali.... ako ay nbabagabag at ngiguilty.... hayyyy.... reyia..... ( wala lng.. overshare n nman...) i must be the soul of disgression....lalala.... ( strum strum guitar..)... sarap vent out feelings sa guitar.... yeah.. hahhaa! build one habit.. abolish one... ive decided to stop na... ung definite time... tba pa... pero ive been thinking about it... and i feel n hndi ko na sya alm mo un.. nccrave.... kasi... ewan.... unless tempted.. o lord please help me resist temptation.... ( ilayo mo sina rache at mae sakin... ) hahaha... jokeness... o wells...

and i quote.... "just move on.. ".... hayyy... weng weng...

(strumming... down down up up down up down down up up down up...)
D A G-A-D
heaven knows ive done no wrong..
D A G A
i only want to sing this song to you.

why does it have to end this way
( blah blah.. di ko n alam...)

D A G A
if i ever had a line to heaven i swear..
D A G A
ill call you there..
D A G A
if i ever had a line to heaven i swear...
D A D G
il be there.... tonight...

weng weng akoooo....

2005-05-02T06:26:00.000-07:00

ahahahha! :) wala lng.... :) sabog ako... at di n pwedeng manyari ulit un.. bawal.. haha! :) o well... so.... nkakatawa si chars.... :) im currently watching charmed.... and la lng.. still not studying for comp test.. evil meee... hahaha!!! yaw n mging ssbog.. baddd un... haha! la ko masabi... later nlng,.

wala lng..

2005-04-28T09:28:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOO MEEEEE!!!!

i now know wat i want for my birthday...

2005-04-26T03:21:00.000-07:00

2 days to go.... itll be my birthday agen, 19 years... 19 long years... of lies, deceit.. and all... i dnt know wat will happen... i dnt want to expect... all i want in that day.... is to be happy... to be really happy.... i dnt want to think about all my problems... i want to let go from all the things that's been bothering me... i want to stop crying every single night... i want to stop wearing a mask... i have been wearing one... i have to show everyone that im happy... because that's me.. im reyia... i should always be happy.. maybe coz it seems like i dnt have any problems... but i do.. im only human.... i have feelings.... i have burdens.... i cant be happy all the time.... but according to the norms.. i should be.... i should be very happy... but i am not... and i will never be...

life is never perfect..... life.... will throw you things that you least expect... and i never expected that from you... everything... i thought you were... perfect.... the best.... watever... but i guess... i was wrong... i must be a bad judge of character..... i dnt know... but i had sooo much trust in you... and now.. its lost...

i want to stop crying... i dnt want to shed tears anymore.. but they wont stop... there were many times that i just really wanted to cry.. for no reason at all... just cry... and cry.... i want to cry all my problems... to cry everything inside me... i think im better off dead...

and agen... i now know wat i want from my birthday... i dont need material things... i dnt need money... i dnt need stuff.... there is just one thing i really need... A HUG. that's all... maybe it will not eradicate all my problems...it may not be the best solution...but i think that's all i need for now... so that atleast.. in a way.. ill know... i am not alone... especially on the day that i was born into this world... just a HUG. to feel that i am special.. loved... thought of and cared for... that's all i need... i think these are the greatest gifts that i can receive...

**** gifts are still greatly appreciated... just kiddin... please forgive my senseless blabber...

booooooo

2005-04-25T04:48:00.000-07:00

wala lng.... pagod nko.... frst day of summer class.. mei ggwin na... huwaattt.. l lng... cge.. nerdox mode...

currently in complab... walang teacher... tpos n SW.. wala lng... walng magawa.... wala ako masulat dito... hahahha!

lab lab lab lab lab lab youuuu...

2005-04-11T07:00:00.000-07:00

1.Who's your love? aside from family, God and friends??? madami...pero sympre... secret...sya na un...
2.Do you believe in the saying that goes "First love never dies." pathetically... i do... i should know..
3.How do you know when it's really love? youll just know... its like... di mo alm ggwin mo.... ur alwys thinking bout that person... tpos u always miss them.. u try ur best to look good for them... u accept them for their faults...u care more... u think less for urslf... inuuna mo sya bgo self mo... its a moment of bliss and butterfly moments pag kasama mo... tipong khit nmn feeling mo nakatingin sya sa yo... basta... mahirap i explain... at relative sya sa bwat tao..
4.Do you know when someone likes you? branded as manhid ako.. ever since... isampla mo n sa mukha ko.. di ko prin mggets... pero in a way.. i hve a hunch..
5.Is love lovelier the second time around? depende how the 2nd time around goes... minsan ksi.. it even hurts more.. the 2nd time around..
6.What' s your opinion about the saying LOVE IS BLIND? its true.... no doubt...no matter gaano kataas ung standards mo.. u always end up with the person that u least likely to like... gets?!
7.Will you do everything for the person you love? everything is an understatement.... as long as kaya ng powers ko at possible sya for me.. ggwin ko...
8.Will you ever fall in love with your best friend? ewn ko... pero if it means sacrificing our friendship...id rather keep the friendship than lose the person.... mas unbearable un, di ko kakayanin...
9.What's your type of girl/boy? ahh... hmm.. sum1 sweet..thoughtful and caring.. sum1 na kayang tiisin ung mood swings ko... Sum1 n nt necessarily mtalino pero smart.. sumone hu can make me laugh... sumone hus der with me wen i cry.. sumone hu can accpt me for me... bsta in short,... sumone hu can love me as much as i love him.. ( di nmn ako picky dba??!!)basta normal n tao na kaya akong mhalin... mahirap ako pg nagmahal...laht ng kaya ko para sa taong un ggwin ko...
10. DO you xpress your feelings openly? yes... ayaw ko kasi n one tym.. bgla nlng ako mawala sa mundong to tpos d ko pa pla nssabi sa mga ato n mahal ko sila..
11.What do you dislike in a girl/boy? ayoko ung mhirap pkisamahan... ako ung pasensyosang tao... pero pg ngcross ka na ng line ko.. iba ka na... kaya ko itake khit anong kweirduhan.. pero pag ako naasra n syo... ibang usapan na un... ayoko din ung sobrng feeling.. tpos ppnsin... tpos ung mga users...
12.Who's your crush? haha... discretion... cnt say... AKIN NLNG UN.. walng mei alm...6 letters... haha!
13.Do you have a bf/gf? now.. WALA.. d ko n kelngn..
14. Is it possible for you to fall in love with an older man or woman? haha... very possible...
15. Eh younger? very possible din.... love is not relative to age... age doesnt matter still holds for me.. unless sobrng cradle snatcher na at sugar daddy ung labas nya.
16. is it possible for you to fall in love with your same sex? i graduated an all girls school without ever hving ka on... did that answer ur question?
17.How hard is a break-up? masakit.... as in.... tipong... nkkcrush tlga ng puso... tpos ewn ko... nkakatnga pa... di ko knya.. lalo n pg niloloko k pla... archer tlga...bsta... sum kinda unexplainable feeling n akal mo npagiwanan k n ng mundo... tpos.. masama lng tlga feeling mo...
18.Are you a heartbreaker? ewn ko... di ko alm... pero... ahha.. wag n nga..
19.What do you do after a break-up? cry.... then get mad... then... go to the parlor... have my hari cut.. and nails done.. ewan ko... new life.. new hair... kelngn putulin lht ng problems..
20.Do you swear never to fall in love again? no.... coz not lobving is lyk... having no life..
21.What's the greatest lesson/s you've learned regarding love? love is always unrequited.... khit n kayo... d ka sure kung ung amount ng love n nfefeel mo for that person is the same as the amount n nfefeel nya syo.... tpos... ewn ko.. love need not be returned... bsta u feel contented loving the person... wag ka na umangal pa, kasiyahn mo nlnga un.. unless malamn mo n may mahal n syang iba... isipin mo nlng kung bkit di mo snabi n mhal mo sya at wala ka nlng magwa kundi maging masya para sa taong un... khit alm mo deep inside nasasaktan k na... ( oo na contradicting nko...)

stupidness...

2005-04-11T04:46:00.000-07:00

hayyyyyyy... okei... now i can finally say that my finals are over... in a month or so... regardless of my summer classes.... 2nd year nko.... its amazing how fast time flies.. and how stressful life can be.. true... classes hasnt even started yet but the pressure is already on me.... and then people will comment that i have to do this.. uphold that... and this... and i dunno if anyone has really done it but they all think that i can and all.... my life has already been planned... dictated upon by the people around me...and there is little room for me to maneuver.... few choices to make.. few things to just plain consider.... i dunno wats happening with me.. or wats wrong... im just plain confused... lost... bedazzled by all the endless possibilities in front of me... i am caught in a net of tangled dreams.... lost in the oblivion of the sea... must atleast try to remember the real reason why... as always... i abhorr these things.... especially pressure.... commitment i can take... but pressure... though sumtyms it seems to bring out the best in me.... a natural procrastinator... yes.. thats me... this entry is pointless.... i dont even know wht emotion im trying to convey here.... all i feel is that im stupid.... and im really sorry.....

SAAARBEEEEYY!!!!

2005-04-07T04:29:00.000-07:00

1. I'm: reyia.
2.I live in: minsan sa taft.. sa mya guaurdhaus sa agno.. o kaya sa bundok sa rizal 3. I love: YM! MCDO! french fries! VM6!
4. People:ahhh.. ewan
5. Life: so weird...
6. I just ate: french fries!!!
7. I wanna see: my frends... and bora.. and rome.. and vatican city and paris
8. I play: volleyball!!! pinball!!!
9. It's now: 7:31 and i just woke up!
10. I'm wearing: shirt and shorts
11. My phone: has no more memory... need new one!
12. I'm worrying about: gettin a 2 and above in my subjects.
13. I wanna go: to the beach..
14. Britney spears is: is some person..
15. Good Charlotte: is a band
6. Weather: is very hot...
17. My shoes are: are doll shoes!!!
18. I drive: CRV.. kso i lost my license.
19. I smoke: luckies!?!?
20. My country is: is in the soth easterm portion of asia surrounded by vast waters.
21. My parents are: not with me right now..
22. I think school is: my home
23. Other sites i'm surfing aside from Friendster: yahoo mail
24. I'm going to: graduate in 6 years and be a doctor!
25. I think this post is: a waste of time
: people around me ::
.My mom is: makulit
.My dad is: mas makulit
.My sister is: wat sister?!!?.
.My brother is: wat brother?!?! tots o!!! si kenken pla.. lil bro!
.My best friend is: gerry!!! the best... :D
.My crush is: huggie. ^_^
.My boyfriend is: nonexistent, pero kung cnu gsto mgapply...okei lng! aha!
.My grandma is: is in AKlan
.My grandpa is: is in the sabungan?
.My teachers are: are unpredictable
:: stuff that i have ::
.My PC is: weird..
.My wallet is: blue..
.My camera is: at home.. and my fone
.My books are: many.. at home..
.My accessories are: diverse
.My sunglasses are: blue!!!
.My towel is: white..
.My teddies: are also in my bed... like chocobaby!
.My clock is: noisy!.
:: what i'm wearing now ::
.My shirt is: white.
.My shorts/trousers are: purple
.My shoes are: doll shoes LA gear
.My jacket is:
.My socks are: purple with hearts!
.My belt is: is white
.My mind is: blah.. sabw..

stress....

2005-04-06T07:13:00.000-07:00

o my god... di nko normal.... psychological n ang buhay ko.. nkkainis.... hayyy.. finals na...2nd yr nko after nito.. and why the hekll am i not studying bioorg?!??! i dunno... sinuka ko lht ng kinain ko knina... haaaaaayup! hahaha... bulemic n ata ako..pwede un.. sure way pmpayat.. haha.. kaso baka nmn mgsuffer ang aking esophagus cz like im frocing the food out of my system.. di na kasi dndgest ata ng stomach ko ung mga knakain ko... di na ngffunction ung rugae.... mali.. the gastric juices pla... damnesss.... i need to atleast get 2 sking bioorg... now..i will study na...shetness.... next tym n ung finals after math... leche tlga.. o wells... byers.

time flies fast... birthday is near..

2005-03-27T07:50:00.000-08:00

hayyy... amazing how fast time flies... as in.. parang kelan lng... isa akong batng lost na froshie sa lasalle.. ngaun... weirdness... gov nko... at sympre.. sweep n nmn batch ko ( i love my btch..). in a matter of weeks.. finals na.. tpos... summer.... ( classes! ) like wat were u thinking!?!? in my course i cant afford to have a vaction.. cguro mga 1 week pwede na.. haha! tpos in one month.. birthday ko na... hahah.. im gonna turn... uhhhh.. 10?? joke.. hahah! anyway.. i dunno!

my birthday wishes.. :)
if i were you i will read this..
1. teddy bear.. as always.. my collection... khit di teddy bear.. bsta stufftoy.. khit aso.. pusa... si STITCH!!! haha! ( ehem.. kia..!)
2. si PIGLET!!!! hehehe... :D cuteness... :D
3. a digicam, discman, laptop, new celfone? ( okei.. acceptable... alm ko for next birthday ko na yan eh... they promised...)
4. shopping money!! ahhaa! ( given... d nababali tong tradition n toh.. mgwawala ako.. unless... hahah!)
5. 5 goals for COS... which is not really for my brtday this year.. baka next year.. well see...
6. a scrpbook?! with lotsa pictures from my frends... na personalized and all..
7. luv life?!?! hehehe... joke.. wish nga dba?!!? di nmn masama mangarap eh!!! :p
8. SECRET.. akin nlng un.. pero immaterial sya.. mhirap ibgay at hndi nbibili..
9. world peace... love, harmony and may all the wishes of other people come true.. heehe..

hint: please... hehe... ( uhumm..) gsto ko sa birthday ko may malking box.. sa loob nun mei stufftoy... tpos madami chocolates... na kisses..( basically, aun nlng ung chocolates n hndi pko ngsasawa...) tpos madmi stars... tpos mei mga rolled up papers with messages from my frends, foes, acquaintances and even pepol i dont know but hopefully i would meet.. hehe! tpos mei mga spiral thingies... ang did u knw n mhilig ako sa swirls... and balloons and bubblegum!!! hahaha... :D pede nio din smahan ng flowers.. joke.. anuu toh valentines?!?! ahhaha!

okei.. i know i seem demanding.. di nmn masydo... pero a little suprise is okay for me... haha.. ksi lht ng birthday ko ay plnado... haha... gsto ko nmn ngaun e hndi ako ung mgiisip kung anung ggwin ko bday ko noh.. haha! pero soo far... most of my bdays have been let's say... unforgetable... as long as im wid my frends and loved ones... masaya un! :D

ahaha.. kung di nio alm kung kelng bday ko... hulaan nio nlng.. heheh... bahal n kayo.. haha! u have... 1 month to prepare.. joke!!! hahaaha! wala lng... i cnt belive im turning 10!!! ahahaha! joke...

TAKE NOTE: I AM NOT PRESSURING ANYBODY!!! joke!!! hahahahahaha!

note to self: i still want cortez... :D yeynesss!!!!

EK!!!

2005-03-18T07:22:00.000-08:00

EK bukas!!yeyness... haha! first time ko mg EK! ( urh.. LOSER!) anyway!! haha! saya nito!!frst ever block outing!!!! such happiness.. just came from waiying.. busog.. pagod.. pero masaya! haha! takaw tlga ng mga taga tapat o!!! hahaa! EKKKK!!!! screaming insanely! hahaha!

TAPAT ROCKS!!!

2005-03-12T19:41:00.000-08:00

THIS IS IT!!! medyo lng nmn napraning ako kahapon from med mission ksi kelngn ko n bumalik ng school para lng nmn malaman ung results ng elections. medyo tumkbo nko pgbaba ng jeeep!!! tpos diretso shakey's n mukha akong loka loka.. n prng harassed n bata... tpos... medyo hinatak n nila ako papunta kna ate army.. muka pkong lost child n gutom at harassed.. amoy palngke pa!hayyyyyy.. so medyo lost ako sa fx noh.. ksi sila alm n pla nila kung cnu nanalo.... tpos ako clueless... huwaattt!?!!?? anyway... aun.... SWEEEPPPP ang aking 104... plus si EDZ!! tpos.. SWEEP ang EB nmin!! o my goddd!! ibang level n ito!!! hayyyy.. i sooo live tapat... my loyalty to this party will never end!!! haahahhaha! :D

its all about the platform

2005-03-02T06:29:00.000-08:00

i just experienced my first ever miting de avance... and im proud to say that i belong to the RIGHT political party here in de la salle.. im soo proud of our candidates... and im proud to be tapat and the vice governor of alyansang tapat sa lasallista.... our vision has sense.. our vision has principles... we aim the best for the students.. we are the one that should dominate this elections.. we deserve to win this elections because we have a stand... we are principled.. and we will not falter..

a roller coaster of emotions

2005-03-01T05:44:00.000-08:00

tama nga sila... roller coaster of emotions nga tlga.. tipong maiiyak ka.. mgagalit ka.. tpos matutuwa ka... kung anu anu n nraramdaman mo.. ewn ko ba... i feel sooo inefficient ngaung elections... parang hndi ko n mbgay ung best ko... wala na... ibng level n ito.. sobra.. nakakafrustrate tlga... parng wla akong naitutulong... di ko kaya ibgay ung effort ko nung FE... masyado akong concentrated sa 104... kasi alm ko sila mei pgasa pa manalo... comapred to them... hayy.. bkit ba gnito.. naiinis nko.. sobra.. ewn ko tlga... kainis...

saaarvbeeey about laaab.

2005-02-28T07:50:00.000-08:00

1. masasabi mo bang kumpleto na ang buhay
mo ngayon?
kelngn ko munang malamn ang basehan ng isang kumpletong buhay para malaman ko kung naabot ko na nga ito.. pero sa ngayon.. msasabi ko n hndi pa kumpleto ang buhay ko.. alm ko na may mga bagay n nais ko pang makamtamn at mga pangarap n nais ko din maabot.

2. bkt?
hndi ko alam dhil ang buhay ng tao ay hndi ntin kayang diktahan.. mangyayari ang mga dapat mangyari.. may mga baya sa ating buhaya ng mgpapabago sa ating mga prinsipyo at kaalaman... ngunit ang mga ito ay syang tutulong sa atin upng makamit ang tunay nting kapakinabangan.

3. masarap bang magmahal? bkt?
ang pagmamahal ay masarap dhil ito ay ngbibgay ng panandaliang solusyon sa ating mga problema. masarap ito pagkat tumtulong ito sa pagkumpleto ng ating buhay ngunit hndi ito nangangahulugan na perpeko n ito.

4. nasaktan ka na ba?
oo... madaling aminin na nasaktan ka na sa pgibig ngunit sa bawat skit n iyong naramdaman ay may kaakibat na aral na syang nkatatak n sa inyong isipan upanmg hndi mo n aulit gawin ang iyong kamalian.

5. kung oo, ilang beses na at ano ang
natutunan mo dito?
sa pgibg, may kaakibat tlgang hinagpis at skit... kung ilng beses.. hndi ko masasagot.. pero marami akong mtutunan na syang tumtulong sa aking paggabay sa buhay.

6. may nasaktan ka na ba?
ayaw ko man sabihin pero sa tingin ko meron na...

7. anong ginagawa mo kapag nasasaktan ka?
hndi ko pinpkita na akoy nasasaktan na... nais kong manatiling matatag.. pero sa kabila ng kasiyahan... ay malalim ng lungkot ang nararamdamn..

8. pano ka magselos?
hahaha.. di mo malalamn n ngseselos n pla ako dhil hndi ko tlga snasabi.. pero pg ngpakita nko ng pagakairita isang senyales n un.

9. pano kung pinagseselos ka ng mahal mo?
hndi ko alam.. pg ngkukuwneto ng kung snu snung babae o kaya may kausap n iba.. basta.. hndi ako mbilis magselos kung alam kong nasa lugar... at wala nmn tlgang malisya.

10. kung mas inuuna pa niya barkada
mahirap mkipgkumpetensya.. kelngn ay compromise.. di ko kayang plitan ang lugar ng mga kaibgan nya.. pero kelngn nya din ako bgyan ng importansya.

11.Pano kung wala syang time para sayo?
ang oras ay mahalaga sa isang pgsasama, kung wala ito.. di ito gagana.. kung wala syang oras para skin.. para san pa at mglalaan ako ng oras para sa knya..

12. pano nman kung sobra-sobra yung time na
hinihingi nya sayo?
kelngn ay hndi sya mging possesive dhil mei sarili din akong buhay... at kelngn ko din iyong galawan.. hndi maaraing sya lng ang inaasikaso ko..

13. anong gagawin mo kung gusto mo na
makipagbreak?
di sasabihin ng malumanay.. at hinay hinay lng.. mgeexplain ng mga dahilan...mas mabuting malamn n nya gling skin.. keysa sa iba pa.

14. sobra-sobra ka ba magmahal?
oo... pg mahal ko isang tao.. mahal ko tlga...

15. makikipagbalikan ka ba kung mahal mo p?
oo... kung mhal ko tlga eh.. anu ba nmn ung 2nd chance?

16. may minahal ka bang hanggang sa
panaginip lng?
hahahah... meron..

17. paano kung puro words?
ewan ko... edi less action... ang labooo...

18. mahal mo, mahal ka, pero di kau?
malabo nga ang mundo.. pero kung kayo tlga.. mgging kayo... pero ewn ko.. kung gnun.. tnggapin nio nlng muna...

19. kung sabihin niya sayong mahal kapa niya
kahit may gf/bf na siya?
ayokong mginig dhiln ng skit ng iba... may iba na sya... dun na lng sya...

20. may gf/bf ka tapos nainlove ka sa iba?
unfair un sa bf ko.... ibg sbhin nun.. di ko tlga sya mahal.

21. yung gf/bf mo, kinokontrol ka masyado?
ayaoko..mei sarili akong pgiisip.. tma na ung medyo strct.. pero linient din.

22. masarap din bang maging single?
oo naman.. more time for yourself.. pero minsan.. nkakamiss din.. pero mas masaya mgaral... bf mo libro mo!

23. pano kung may gf/bf ka pero madaming
hadlang?
o pagibig.. hahamakin ang lht.. masunod k lmng.. o dba?

24. sino mas paniniwalaan mo: gf/bf o bestfriend?
bestfrend... hehehe...
..

25. mahilig ka bang magrevenge?
hndi nmn.. masama un.

26. what do u think is the hardest part of
being a boy?
hndi ko alam,.. hndi ako lalaki... pero sa tingin ko.. ung mbusted nga.. at umasa sa taong mahal mo..

27. eh being a girl?
ung ipakita n hndi mo gusto ung isang tao pero sa totoo e mahal mo tlga...

28. have you ever used someone para lng
maging panakip butas lang?
hndi ako gnun kasama... pero feeling ko nagawa ko na un.. pero naitama ko nmn ang aking pgkakamali..

29. nagpromise siya sayo pero di niya tinupad?
di na sya dpt pgkatiwalaan

30.handa kabang makipag-kaibigan sa ex mo?
oo nmn... wala n nmn akong glit sa knya.. at wala n rin akong pake.

GENERAL ELECTIONS NA!!!

2005-02-25T10:10:00.000-08:00

GE NA ! GE NA!!! wala lng.. ngaun ko lng ksi nafeel ehh.. at nppressure n ako... ang weird.. ksi ngaun ko lng nararamdamn.. weirdness is meee...a t sympre.. napakagaling nmn... diba?!?!!? kung keln GE... ska ba nmn sabay saby ang aking mga EXAMS! TMA BA NAMAN TO?!?! paano ako mkkpgaral nyan!??! AHAHA! ohhh weeellll.. :D GOOOOO COSSSS!!!! hehehehee... malaki ang tiwala ko sa aking mga kandidato.. at alm kong kaya nila ito!!! hehehehehe..... at sympre... ako... kelngn ko n atang i - ON ang aking powers.. ang aking pangangarir sa mga tao! ahahaha!!!! kelngn eh.. that's wat they expect of me... specifically.. sabi nila skin.... KELNGN MO MAEXCEED ANG PERFORMANCE MO NUNG FE. meron pla... ahhaa!!! di ko kaya napansin n ang galing ko daw nung FE. normal kasi un for me eh.. that's not even the best.... hahahhaa! next year nlng.. pag ako n GOV. KABBBOOOMM n ito! hahahahha.. joke... pero wala lng... i hope for the best... :D

FOR A JUST AND FREE SOCIETY....

PASCUAL, PALANCA, TATTAO, COMIA, MENDOZA!!!IBOTO ANG DAPAT! VOTE STRAIGHT TAPAT!!!!

wala lng...

2005-02-24T06:32:00.000-08:00

ano nmn ang pinagkaiba ng MARTIR,
sa pagiging great PRETENDER...

kpag martir ka, lahat tinatago mo.. gusto mo cia,pero dahil sa dahilang di mo alam, sa sarili mo nlng.. para lang umiwas sa mga isyu lalo na kung paborito ng bayan ang kwento ng buhay mo..
nakikita mo cia kasama ng iba, habang ikaw pasimple nlng na lumalayo at kunwari walang nakita.. xempre, bakit mo pa cla titingnan?.. kung ang nais mo talaga ay ikaw ang nsa ganong
kalagayan... masakit kc, mdalas imposible... pero ang pagmamahal, hindi matatawag na pagmamahal kung hindi ka msasaktan..

minsan, ang kung gaano pa cia kasakit,
mas lalo mo ciang minamahal...

kahit niloloko ka na at pinapaasa, ikaw isang martir kunwari isang bulag na walang nakita...
madalas hindi raw naaapektuhan, pero pagdating sa bahay, kapag mag-isa na lng, ano gnagawa mo?

ayan, umiiyak habang wlang nakakakita..
walang nakakaalam...

pag tinatanong ka kung hanggang saan ang kaya mong ibigay, sasabihin mo:

" lahat, lahat ng kaya ko.."

pero pag tinatanong ka na kung ano na ang gagawin mo matapos mong masaktan,
e2 ang sagot mo: "... iyak.. dadaanin ko nlng sa iyak..mwa2la din yan.."

hindi mo alam.. sa bawat luhang pumapatak, lalong dumadagdag sa pagmamahal mo
sa knya... tanga ka na sa ibang tao.. pero ang tingin mo sa sarili mo isa pa ring henyo..

bakit..

kasi..

sa bawat pagmamahal na binibigay mo, hindi mn ikaw ung nagkukulang.. pero mali pa rin daw un.. magtira daw para sa sarili.. tama nmn.. pero mahirap gawin.. para sa isang taong, puso ang umiiral... ipaliwanag mo man sa knila, hindi nila un maiintindihan.. dahil hindi nmn sila ung nsa kalagayan mo di ba...

ikaw, na nagmamahal lang, ayan.. tingnan mo mabuti.. umiiyak ng wlang katapusan..wala nmng pinagkaiba sa pgiging great pretender eh..

ang taong martir AY MAGALING MAGPRETEND..

oo.. expert sila jan..

dahil.. kahit alam nila na hindi nmn sila
ang mahal, anong ginagawa nila, ayan, hindi pa rin
natitinag..hindi nagsasawa.. patuloy pa rin sa pagbibigay..

hanggang sa wala ng mailuha..

hanggang sa maging manhid na..

oo nga nmn..

bakit mo itatago ang nararamdaman mo sa knya di ba?!..

anong nakakahiya?.. eh mahal mo cia..

minsan ang pagiging tanga, wala sa pagiging martir..

ang pagiging tanga, nasa pagiging duwag..

bakit mo itatago ang isang bagay, na khit kelan hindi nmn kasalanan...

magtira para sa sarili, un ang sabi nila..

pero kaya ka nga nagmamahal,

dahil mahal mo ang sarili mo at gusto mo lumigaya kasama ng taong mahal mo di ba?..

pero madalas..

kung cno ung nagmamahal ng totoo.. ung pa ung nagdurusa, sa kabila ng lahat ng pagmamahal na kaya nilang ipadama.. wala nmn minsan sa knila ung problema.. minsan nandun na sa taong mahal nila.. na masasabi kong great pretender din.. kc nag-pepretend sila na wala silang nararamdaman.. pareho lang di ba?!... wlang pinagkaiba.. hindi mo alam kung knino ka na maniniwala.. pero sa kabila ng lahat.. hindi mo magawang magalit sa taong mahal mo.. tapos ng ilang minuto, ayan ka na ulit.. obserbahan mo sarili mo.. babalik at babalik ka uli sa knya.. ilang beses mo mang itanggi sa sarili mo, ikaw yan at wala ng iba.. pero kpag nsasaktan ka na, ano pa rin iniisip mo, "paano na cia"... cia.. cia.. puro kapakanan niya.. eh siya ba.. khit minsan inisip ka?.. hindi nmn di ba...pero asan ka.. ayan, sa kbila ng lahat ng sakit, tumatayo pa rin.. lumalaban.. cge lang ng cge.. hanggat kaya pa... ganyan magmahal ang martir..

wlang hinihinging kapalit..

walang bakit, paano, cno, dati at kung
ano ano pa.. ang meron lang, :

"mahal na mahal ko xa...."

im a YM Un-NERD freakazoid..

2005-02-23T06:05:00.000-08:00

soooo TIRED. as in.. parang whole week.. wala akong gnawa kundi aral.. plus training... plus going home late.. plus all the other responsibilities... soo not good.. its amazing how i even manage to get a decent grade... so stupid is me.. wala lng.. amazing tlga... i pass.. and i realtively get higher grades than last time. it must be all these pressure.. and im foreseeing that i wont be able to sleep tonight.. due to the insertion, origin and action of these stupid 87 muscles.. times 3.. equals 261 stupidness of muscular insanity... hayyyy... will this ever stop? im really rethinking if i want to be a doctor? i know im not they type to give up easily.. and wen i set my heart on somthing, i really do it.. but.. i dunno.. i dnt think ill be able to take this kind of pressure and exhaustion and the reading everday... im slowly trying to accustom my self to this kind of life... and admittingly.. im not yet well adjusted.. it amazes me to see myself studying like crazy.. this is so not me... i was not like this in high skul... eventhough i manage to get a fairly good grade above others.. i never used to study THIS MUCH. all i do is watch tv and listen to the radio.. and eat... now... i eat... and study and sleep... im slowly feeling that i no longer have a social life... i wasnt able to see my friends because i have to attend to academic and tapat matters.. i have not come home to cainta for 2 months now... and i know my friends are soo mad at me for not calling them up.. i just dont have the time and the energy to do it.. im really sorry guys... and then im knda depressed/pathetic because i feel to fat to the brink of entertaining the thought of not eating.. only to feel better.. but i cant, cz im always hungry because of this stupid studying always thing.. anyway.. i wanna watch movie but i cant.. because.. i dont know... soo stupid... hayy... STOP. i have to study the muscles p pla! divertion.... my attention span is sooo SHORT! damn. UN-nerd is me.

naiinis ako ngaun...

2005-02-20T02:29:00.000-08:00

naiirita ako ngaun.. di ko alma kung bkit.. wala lng.. parang ang bilis ko mainis.. pero di nmn ako naiinis in anyone in prticular.. nakakairita lng tlga.. nkakairita ang buhay.. nkakainis magaral tpos mbaba din makukuha mo... nkakabwusit magisip... nkakainis in short.. sorry kung medy MOOdy ako ngaun.. bka PMS to? shet. anyway.. aunn... nkakainis... ayoooko na... leche tlga....

THINK OF ME..

2005-02-18T07:43:00.000-08:00

Think of me

Think of me fondly when we've said goodbye

Remember me

Once in a while, please promise me you'll try

When you find that once again you long to take your heart back and be free

If you ever find a moment

Spare a thought for me

We never said our love was evergreen

Or as unchanging as the sea

But if you can still remember

Stop and think of me

Think of all the things we've shared and seen

Don't think about the way things might've been

think of me

Think of me waking, silent and resigned

Imagine me trying too hard to put you from my mind

Recall those days

Look back on all those times

Think of the things we'll never do

There will never be a day when I won't think of you.

========== hayyyyy... WALA LNG... stressful and unproductive is me.. sana hndi nko gnito katamad... o well... wala pa sa mood ang utak ko.. hayyyy.. think of me... o diba.. ang gnda!!!

post valentines.... feeling not soo bitter.. cha cha..

2005-02-15T08:16:00.000-08:00

hmmmm.. the very late valentines post... okay.. hahaha! ngaun ko lng ksi nfeel magsult.. okay.. so yesterday was lets say a parade of balloons, flowers, bears and chocolates.. hahah.. okay.. admittingly.. seeing ppl have those things is both icky.. and enticing... therefore triggering bitterness... hahaha.. anwyay... tpos na ang aking state of bitterness okay.. hayyy... okay. let's examine the past valentine's day in a logical and philosophical manner... hmm.. why celebrate valentine's day? what is its purpose? why allot a specific day annually to celbrate it? for me.. its pointless... y? because if the main objective of this day is to spreas love and joy and stuff... then it is senseless... why should we limit this day in showing our affections for someone... more often than not.. ppl become very sweet.. and caring... and mushy... cant they be all that everyday.. believe me. if ppl would have that peception everyday.. if ppl would think that it is valentine's day everyday.. the world would be a better place to live in.. seriously... celebrating the day of hearts every year implicitly says that ppl should act differently towards others.. they should be nicer.. they should act sweeter... and all.. in short... TINUTURUAN TYONG MGING PLASTIC... hahaha! walang kwenta... o well... and i never realized that i dnt greet people on vday.. they just greet me and i just smile... o well.. smile lng.. hahaha.. i dnt want to say happy vday.. if it wasnt happy for me... so id be saving myself from being too sarcastics about it.. so id rather not greet at all... :)

id like to thnk ppl who atleast made me feel special sa aking araw ng kabitteran.. ahaha ! wata word! hahaa.. salamt rache sa pagkupit ng lobo at purple sya... slamt chard ksi hnyaan mong kumupit ng lobo si rache.. salamt kei chars.. n khit nkakatawa kng pgpawisan hbng hnaharana... naisip mo rin n kmi gmwa nun.. hahaha! salamt sa balloon.. " ms. may oso p b kyo?! " .. slamt kei melody.. n hndi ko inaasahan n bbgyan moko ng balloon... hahaha! so umuwi ako sa bahay ng may sangkatutak na lobo... salamt dn kei JM at kei ate noelle.. para nio n rin akong hnarana sa medley ntin ng disney songs ang phantom of the opera.. haha! masaya.. sympre.. ako pa asa gtna.. at pgirly effect.. haha! watever... salamt din pla sa aking mga blockmates n ngskirt.. haha! pacute tlga mga loka kayo! hahaha! pero in fairness.. matino! kaso deviant si mama eh.. hayy... o well... salamt nlng kung knino.. pero sana bngyan nio ako ng bulaklak para mas masaya... o dba?! haha! demanding.. para complete.. hehe! mei choclates nko at balloons eh.. d bale.. mei next tym p nmn eh.. mei chnce p kyo.. haha! :) joke! drama.. aun.. wala na.. bgla nkong mawawala...

struck by BITTERNESS.. talo ako sad to say...

2005-02-14T15:39:00.000-08:00

okay.. the much awaited valentines post..id better post this now... kesa later pa.. pointless... anyway... im experiencing a weird feeling.. tipong depression... or bka ewn ko... emptiness... hayyy... of all the days... well actually.. itong day lng pla tohoapplicable... hayyy... its like all of a sudden you cant smile... you have no energy to even smile... tpos pg ngingiti k.. kelngn pilit... i know... this is what you call BITTERNESS... hayyy... i never really liked valentines... i never really celebrated it in the first place.... i mean.. dreaming of roses and flowers and stuff are just sooo stupid... knowing that it will never come true... fuck. hayyy... pero here i am... anticipating and somehow hoping... and then i plunge myself to this annoying depression of why im lonely in the first place... yes.. me... u hear it from the girl who vowed to stay single in college life.. me.. that girl... stupid. im in the brink of crying over my pathetic self right now.. and all thoughts of why no one loves me.. or why im lonely is floating in this stupid head of mine.. hayyy... i cant help but remember.. ilng valentines n ba ang napgdaan ko ng gnito ako? hayyy.. countless.. and having a boyfriend at those times doesnt even help at all... mga walang kwenta... maybe im just too romantic and idealist... oo na! babae din ako.. may times nmn n gsto ko pampered ako or may romantic thing n gngwa pra skin.. one reality sank in today... AYOKO NA MAGING MABABAW... i knw im the type of person n sobrng small things lng eh appreciated ko na... it makes me feel inferior.. thinking na im worth only that thing.. not that i detest people who do small things for me... i highly appreciate p rin.. pero wala lng... baka namn u ppl think high maintanance ako... yeah right... hear it from a gurl who hasnt been given flowers all her life... well of course, exception ang debut ko at gradball ni zach.. pero ewn ko... i know its kinda stupid to actually feel hurt.. khit wala nmn dhilan..
( understatement..) and the only word that makes me smile is wai ying.. which is kinda dunce.. hayyy.. okai... this i not the valentines post i was planning to write.. i usually evaluate this day and its purpose in my life.. pero i guess later nlng un ng gabi... para nmn medyo clear n ang utak ko... hayyy... the effects of this valentines fever in my life... im not in love nmn... ( di nga ba?) or ewn ko... keln ba toh mwawala.. how i wish this is just an ordinary day... para minus the cluttered mind ako... maskit dibdib ko... ewn ko ba kung bkit... prang i want to burst and say im soo tired of this life... in short.. total break down... this is soo senseless, i know... pero wat can i do? nothing... just let it pass i guess... para tumigil n ang pgiging senseless ng utak ko? hayy.. they told me i was so pretty pa nmn today... di pa daw nya ako ntatanaw.. yeah right... hayy... tears brimming... ang bbaw ko tlga to cry about senseless and pointless things.. alang kwenta. leche. stop na... ayoko n nito... ( and now im actually crying..) shet... hirap tlga pag ako tinamaan ng depression.. walng kwenta.. next tym.. dont get ur hopes up... lgapak lng aabutin mo... later na ang aking logical evaluation ng araw n toh... di n tlga ako matino..

PERA! i need PERA!

2005-02-13T05:27:00.000-08:00

okay.. nkkpgod ang araw na ito... as in... :) hehehehhee... sobra!!! wala lng... mga bata tlgang un oh... mga sugapa sa chocolates!!! ahaahah!!! flat tops rocks tlga... hayyy.. and as usual, ang aking katawan ay tumawag n nmn ng time out kaya ako ay nakatulog.. at nakalimutan ko madami pla ako ggwin! salamt sa post it notes!! buti naimbento ka!!! hehehehehe!!! o well... vday n bukas... at para sa aming mga bitter nila mandee... kmi'y mtutulog nlng sa bahay.... o dba.. bongga! kadate ang kama... joke.. hahaha! papritihan kmi ng mga blockmates ko buks... hehehe.. ako sympre mei isusuot na.. heheh.. bukas ko lng cla mkikita n sobrng girly... kelngn ng picture! as in!! uhuhuhuh!!wala lng.. hehehe.. cnu kaya pwede ko yayain n mgvalentines dinner? hahahah! :) wala lng... kahit cnu.. mga kaladkarin nman mga tao sa [ligid ko eh... syang nmn ang aking outfit o dba??? hehehe! yesss!!! mei pumayag!!! dinner kmi sa RP! hehehhe... huwweeee! wala lng.. amzing noh.. heeh... feeling ko akoy mawawaln ng pera ng madali! heheh.. wala lng.. kasi kmi ay kkain sa RP! for valentines! hehehe! wala lng... gstadorang bata! heheh... pag ako nawalan ng allowance.. wala na.. its over.. hayy... damness... huhuhuh... di nko mkkain.. hehehe.. fasting to bgla... hayyy... mgtitipid n nga next tym.. hahaha! :) wala lng.... hehe..

KABOOM!!!

2005-02-12T08:45:00.000-08:00

okay.... i spent. hmm. about 15 minutes just watching the fireworks in the lova palooza.. hehe... pero i wasnt there ha.. i was watching from my window.. ( love my window.. nakharap sa manila bay..) anyway.. ayun.. heheh.. ganda ng fireworks.. i mean.. basta... magnda... di sya tulad ng ibang fireworks n nkita ko.. asteeg sya... hehe... hayyy... tpos mei heart shaped fireworks pa... note to self: ma.new year.u promised...:) anyway.. aun.. masya.. ang gnda ng fireworks.. kaya medyo ndivert ang utak ko sa pgaaral ng rels... slightly.. :) hehehe... sana pla umkyat akong rooftop.. pero lonely nmn kung dun lng ako mgisa.. hehe.. so prang nakatunganga lng ako ng mga 30 minutes pa... tpos n fireworks by that tym... so.. wala lng.. tunganga... kainis.. naalala ko ttpusin ko p pla ung rels.. hehe.. midterms ko na sa monday... hehe.. wala lng.. so im currently reading/writing/tunganga/ eating bluskies/tulala... hahaha.. okay.. multi tasking nga ako... heheh.. basta bukas akoy mtutulog pgdating sa bahay.. sana ay mgising din ako ng medyo maaga nmn.. wala lng.. narealize ko n wala pln akong pera... heheh.. di rin gumagana ang utak ko.. wala lng.. argh.. hmmm.. anyway.. ayon.. kung anu man yun... get over urslef reyia... tpusin mo n trabaho mo... tamad k tlga.. lagi k nlng tamad... wag k mniwala sa knilang masipag ka.. tamad ka eh... di ka nga ngaaral eh.. mtulog k nlnga... anooo baaa!! hehehe... wala lng.. semi monologue... hayyy... cute... ganda parin ng fireworks.. at ng daisy dito sa aking room... hehhee.. buti ay naisalba kita sa evil janitor n ngnanais n itapon ka... mind u ppl.. i have a soft heart for flowers.. and plants... kasama ko kasi sila paglaki ko eh.. hehehe.. wala nga lng akong green thumb.. orange pwde? ngek corny... joke.. hehehe.. hayyyy... sna ay maulit ang bonding tym with normandee... kelngn ko tlga.. wala lng.. kelngn ko lng.. haaaayyy...

ang pathetic ko...

2005-02-12T03:17:00.000-08:00

No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide-eyed fears
I’m here, nothing can harm you
My words will warm and calm you

Let me be your freedom
Let daylight dry your tears
I’m here, with you, beside you
To guard you and to guide you

Say you love me every waking moment
Turn my head with talk of summertime
Say you need me with you now and always
Promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you

Let me be your shelter
Let me be your light
You’re safe, no one will find you
Your fears are far behind you

All I want is freedom
A world with no more night
And you, always beside me
To hold me and to hide me

Then say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you need me with you here, beside you
Anywhere you go, let me go too
Christine, that's all I ask of you

Say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you

Share each day with me, each night, each morning

Say you love me

You know I do

Love me, that's all I ask of you

Anywhere you go, let me go too
Love me, that's all I ask of you

... gusto ko manuod ng phantom... huwaaa... pero wala... di pwede... ksi... wala lng.. wala nmn ako kasama... sooo sad is me... that is sooo sad... hayyy... sa monday nlnga ako maglalagay ng aking valentines post.. hehehe.. para ewn ko... asteeg.. hayyyy... ui.. soreee tlga... akoy ngguilty pa rin... me and my tactlessness tlga.. kainis... anyway... wala lng.. inatake ako ng vanity ngaun.. akoy ngpaayos ng buhok.. sabay palinis ng kuko.. sabay bili ng kung anu anu... kainis.. gastadora... ahnoo baa! hayyy.. gnito ba tlga pg malapit ang valentines.. at sadness ka?! di nmn actually sadness... pero alm mo un... ur feeling that u cannot relate to those starry eyed ppl n may love life... at malamng uulan ng flowers, teddy bears at balloon sa skul.. heehe.. wala lng... as always... ako wala... hayyyy... wala.. tpos... harana... kei chars.. hehhe... anoo ba... bitterness inducing ang panahong ito.. nkakainis.. sana lumipas n ang valentines para normal n mga tao.. leche... wala lng... nkakairita.. bkit ba ako.. sabi ko i dnt need a love life eh... actually.. its not love life im bitter about... its loneliness... ung tipong wala kng macelebrate ng araw na to with sumone special... i hope once sa isang valentines day... meron... it may not be this yr.. next yr.. basta... sumday... wala lng... DI NAMAN MASAMA MANGARAP DIBA? hayyy.... masarap mangarap.. masarap mgimagine na totoo sila... pero masakit lumagapak sa realidad ng buhay... hehehe.... wala.. naranasan ko n ung mga gnung depressed moments sa aking buhay at wala syng naidulot n maganda... seryoso.. lilipas din un.. isang araw lng sya sa isang taon... hayy.. reyia... mgising ka n nga... wala lng.. ano ba toh... this spells me as PATHETIC...

of food trips and bonding moments..

2005-02-11T08:34:00.000-08:00

hayyyyyyy...1130 nko nkauwi from wai ying.. i bet naguuramentado na ang nanay ko kasi late n nmn ako umuwi.. well.. as usual... hehehe... halos everyday ay gabi nko umuuwi... kainis... anyway.. ayon... after mcdo.. ako ay nyaya sa wai ying nila jm, chars, beni, boni at steph... hehehe... kaladkaring bata... hahaha... o well... wai ying.. was wai ying as usual... heheh.. busog... :) hehe.. anyway... ayun.. masya.. pero mas masya ako before nun.. :) kasi.. hehehe.. sikretong malupit.. hndi mapipilit...

ewn ko ba.. trip ko magaksaya ng pera ngaun.. knina.. ng shopping galore ako.. tpos bukas.. ako'y mgppcellophane ng buhok... at ewn ko... manicure ata... :) tpos shopping ulit for the perfect sleeeperss.. na sa wakas ay nkita ko din.. hehehe!! so aun ang manyyri skin bukas.. shopping... buhok... at gastos.. sana nmn me matira ako for food... kainis.. hehe..

FOR YOU....

2005-02-08T08:20:00.000-08:00

alam ko.. nababasa mo to eh... hehhee.. kaw pa... avid fan k na ata ng blog ko... :) hehehhe...kaya pla madami k nllman tungkol skin.. deny ka pa na bnbsa mo.. hehhee.. o well.. diba ngpromise ako syo... mgsusulat ako dito ng isang entry na tungkol lng sayo... hehehehe... baka sakaling tngnan mo... o icheck mo man lng.. hehehe... sana hndi... ehehe.. joke! hehehe.. ayun... hehehe.. hmmm.. paano ko ba to sisimulan??? hehehe... wala akong maisip.. hehe... basta.. itong entry ay tungkol sa isa kong kaibgn n ubod ang bait.. isa sya sa mga taong nkakatiis ng aking kakulitan... ( sana po hndi umikli pasensya mo skin!) hehehe.. ayun...tuwang tuwa ako sa taong to... cute cute! as in... :) hehehe... bestfrend ko to eh.. ( dati... pero para skin hnggng ngaun pa din.. ewn ko nlng syo noh... ) sobrang bait.. pinapagalitan ako pg akoy makulit na.. opo.. makiking n po ako.. hndi n po mauulit... promise po... o ayan ha.. masya ka na... :) hehehe... cguro sobrang lucky ko at nging frend kita. khti di ko ineexpect n mgiging close tyo.. ( seryoso...). alam ko ikaw din... kaya.. salamat po sa lht... hahaha! ang pointless.. na mcurious ka sa mga pingsasabi ko dito... mukhng lng kwnta nmn... anyway... salamt po ulit sa laht... :) hehhee... at oo na... aaminin ko na.. nmiss kita.. o yan ha... hehe..bulgaran n to... hehe.. peace... ingatz po parti... hehehhee... yaaakkkk... hehehe.. teddy bear,... hahahhaha! memmories tlga ntin o... hahhaa... nkaka.... hahhaha! basta... hndi to matino.. next tym nlng.. i swear...

nhulog ako... ( i fell........)

2005-02-08T08:14:00.000-08:00

ako ay nhulog.................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................sa upuan knina... hehehe.. nkkhiya.. tpos itong isang classmate ko pa.. promotor sa tawa... wala n nga tumtawa eh.. ako lng mei karapatang tumawa.... nkakapika ka.... hmmmphhhh... pero sooo far.. khit medyo sabog ang gtna ng araw ko... masaya nmn ang knyang katapusan... hehe!! amzing! hehehe... hayyyyyyy.. masaya... masaya.. khit puro gaguhan ang nanyari... pwede tlga... :)

of sound trips and love life...

2005-02-05T09:25:00.000-08:00

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone I walk alone
I walk alone I walk alone..

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

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you love me but you dont know who i am
im torn between this life i lead and where i stand
you love me but you dont know who i am
so let me go, let me go...

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hehehehhe... masaya toh... :) wala lng...galing akong G4 knina with kiatots.. haha! masama tlga pg pingsama 2 only child... sabog ang kakalabasan!!! hahahah ! nakatambay lng kmi sa gift factory!!! mei wish list nko!!1 hahahhahahaha!!! isip bata tgla.. kung gusto nio akong bgyan ng gft... punta kayo gift factory... seryoso... hahahaha!!1 :)

MY WISH LISt:
1. piglet n stufftoy... hehehe.. basta cute at huggable.. ( ung myayakap ko pgtulog...) ok n skin...
2. si stitch!!!! cutie stitch!!! as in... matutunaw n sya skin knina..
3. isang malaking teddy bear sa gift factory na sobrng lambot ang sarap yakapin!!! hayy... pwedeng gawing unan.. nakakatuwa tlga!! as in!! saya!!! lambot! HHHHHMMMMMMM!
4. si elmo.... my name is elmo...
5. purple na unan... na may stars....:)
6. hahhaa.. anoo pa ba... Cd ng foo fighters.. green day.. south border.. ( iregalo nio skin si duncan ramos!)... saka ewn ko pa...
7. hahahha.... birthday ko... bgyan nio ako ng flowers... saka lobo!!! seryoso.. mahilig ako sa bubblegum at lobo... hahahaa!! tnung nio sa mga kabarkada ko.. muka akong lobo....

waaaahhhh!! valentines na nga pla... sob sob... wala akong howe... hehehe.. di ko nmn kelngn eh... :) pero sana may manyari maganda... nung last na valentines day.. nashock ako nun eh.. as in... sana ngayon ma shock din ako... :) hehehehe. hayyyy.. mei tnung ako.. would u be my VALENTINE?!?!?! yes/ no lng sa tagboard... hehehe! wala lng.. pathetic no.. pero ksi nkakabitter tlga ang araw na un eh.. wala nmn akong npapala dun.. duhhh.. ewn ko.. bahala n.. khit ano... kainis tlga.. mhirap pag sa araw ng mga puso eh love less ka... as in... hehehe! pero kaya... ang aking kadate... ay ang aking complab n lbro... hehehe..!!! mei exam ksi ako knabukasan... ahahaha! :) ewn ko nlng tlga... heheheh.. masya sya.. :) o well... duhhhhh... hmmmph... valentines.. cnu ba ngpauso nun.. kainis... naaalienate mga walng love life.. ahahaha! :) booooo! joke...

frustration sucks..

2005-02-04T07:45:00.000-08:00

naiinis ako ngaun.... ewn ko bva.. ngaun lng ngsink in skin lht ng mga possible n manyari s batch ko... alam ko kaya nila manalo... but can they provide the kind of service that my batch needs... i know they can win.. but can they serve my batch??? will my batch be mobilized when they win... will my btach realize that WE have a batch representative... im really frustrated with what has happened in my batch...in short.. WALANG nanyari sa knila.. kung gaano sila ka apathetic dati.. gnun pa rin sila ngaun... walng pingiba.. same pa rin... APATHETIC.. and ive been getting comments from people to run... so that i could change the structure of my batch.. so that i could atleast mobilize them daw... and i wanted to run na... kasi i feel frustrated with the things that has happened... and wht ive heard... kahit papaano... i owe it to the btch to atleast provide them with proper service.. on account that ive been asking them to vote for people.... pero still.. im frustrated... nkit ba gnito... hnd sila efficient... basta.. nkakainis tlga... sana pla tumkbo nlng ako ng first term... sana pla i did not chnge my mind... sana pla i checked nlng that little box with yes... para sana... i should have made a difference now... stupid ako.. dami gsto mgparun skin... ngaun... ako namn ang kinukulit ng btch ko... ano isasagot ko.. di nmn ako ttkbo.. ngaun pa... last yr ko na next yr... i need to focus on my studies... ewn ko ba.. magulo... ewan ko..

IM LOST.

2005-02-03T07:34:00.000-08:00

hayyy.. COs day tomorrow.. hell day.. hectic day... day that will affirm my status as a COS student.. the day where i will see if i will function.... properly.. hehe... anyway.... ive gotten many offers... i dont know wat to do na with my life.. as much as possible.. iw ould like to really enjoy my stay here in lasalle without neglecting my priorities... should i run for SC? should i be active in SV? should i just stay as a core member of tapat??? all these things... i enjoy doing.. all these things has become a part of my core... im not the type to just jump into conclusions... i have learned to love them all.... bnut the question is... whta should i do??/ can i choose all.... will my body and time permit it??? i dont know.... decisions in my life.. so many that bothers me... but the road i tke will affect everything... i dnt know where to go now... im lost.

puro sana...

2005-02-02T06:58:00.000-08:00

saliksik ngaun... sooo far.. napakasaya.. khit alm mo un.. wala msyado ung element ng bonding... at wala masyadong iyakan... pro enjoy p rin block nmin... :D as in.. heheh.. mga loko loko tlga ung mga un... :D hehehe... wala masyadong realizations sa saliksik.. its just an R an R for us... :D hhehe. relax and rewind... and u know.. aun.. leche.. inaantok ako.. bkit gnito?!?!? hahaa... di pko gumagwa ng report.. kainis.. waaahhh!!! :(( hehehe.. o well.. sana maayos na ang slate nmn... pra hndi nko mapilitan tumkbo... at sana... ewn ko.. maging matino na ang buhay ko... :D amazing... sana... wala lng.. puro sana ang nasa isip ko... sana walang makaalm mga pingsasabi ko sa isang blog ko... sana walang may malaman... sana lng.. heheh.. :D

hayyyyyyy... sana hndi nko inaantok ngaun.. para sana.. magawa ko na report nmin... masya noh.. hehehe.. puro sana ang utak ko.. ewn ko ba... sana lng ung naiisip ko...

rants

2005-02-01T07:07:00.000-08:00

hayyy.. why...???? should i or should i not????? think... hard... decide.. fast... i dunno wat to do with life na... why??? its ur decision not theirs... fly... freee... think.... be brave.. face reality..

SANA... hehe.

2005-01-29T07:05:00.000-08:00

sana'y masabi, sa awit kong ito..

lahat ng ninanais nitong puso ko...

sana'y saan man, patuloy sa buhay..

may pag-ibig, may pagasa, may saya at saysay..

sana'y sa bawat sandali matikman pa..

sarap ng pagsasama.. simpleng ligaya..

tara na, sakyan lng.. malay mo...

andyan lng.. andyan lng.. ang hinahanap mo..

of inuman blues... and disturbing the neighbor's sleep... hehehe..

2005-01-28T09:51:00.001-08:00

yesterday was green and white day... frustrating... i was waitng for 6 cycle mind.. and they only played at about 11 pm... and they played 3 songs.. well.. atleast they sang biglaan.. but still... sooo not worth it.. we should have drank earlier... and i could have just listened to their cd.... o well.. we were playing at the central plaza.. and i tripped chars out of his chair... hahaha!! FUNNY!!! as in... chars... im soo sowwweeee.. it was sssooooo funny... hahahha!!! :) then inuman came.. and gone... people were soooo bangag... haha! they kept making hahaha.... SHHHHH noises until my neighbors came knocking on my door... hahahha.... sooo funny..pro nkakahiya pa rin... kelngn kong mgsorry... hahhaa... oh no.. sumone forgot his watch.. o well... im not lasing... nor tipsy... hehehhee... mtno pako at so far nlinis ko pa ung condo.. hehehe... daming bottles lying around.. hahaha!!! masaya.. pero sana hndi gnito ka extreme... hehee.. o well... tapat... is the epitome of extreme.. hehehe.. guys.. i had fun.. pero next tym.. stop na muna the orgy session.. hehe.. awky.. hehee.. joke! hahahahhaa!! :D hayy... cwts tomorrow.. and i cnt believe that i have to take care of all my members... huwaattt?!?!? hayyy... o well.. i hope mei gumising skin bukas.. hehehe.. yoko ng bangag... iinuman p kmi bukas.. haha! heehehee.. me realized sumthing... pero its a secret... hehe..
wow.. nike watch.. hehe... me will not go to training tomorrow... me is still soo bangag... hahahha!!! next week.. is a whole new week for me.... new week.. new things... resos... and stuff... feb na... hayyy... i think i have to sleep na.. heeh.. grabe tlga.. hehe.. ibng level na toh... stress.. and all.. leche tlga.. hahaha! i hope i can survive... as in tlga...

note to self... wag na hayaang mabangag mga tao... hehehe... as in... wag na... hehehe... its 2 am... and im not yet asleep... shet... iba na toh.. hehehe... :D amzing... :D

tomorrow.. will be studying for complab... hehehe... as in... back to hypermode....

ONE sided stupidity...

2005-01-27T08:34:00.000-08:00

ive been a journalist ever since i was in grade 4... i became editor of both or school paper and high school paper.. in short... i know the ins and outs of journalism... when i reached college... i made it my goal to join one of the school's publications... apparently.. i might have joined the wrong one.. one word... PROFESSIONALISM... a publication's duty is to present facts and unbiased articles... a journalist's job to look for facts... a news article is factual.. it should not feed objectivity to its readers.. it presents the facts.. the truth.. a journalist must do the best she can to gather all the sensible data and evaluate them.. before he/she puts it in to writing... but frst one must know how to gather the facts correctly... define correctly? one must know the proper way to interview a person.... NO ONE IN THEIR RIGHT MIND WOULD INTERVIEW A PERSON THROUGH TEXT... that is impersonal... and vague... one would not understand it clearly... thus... the interpretation will become an assumption.... it is therefore.. NOT A FACT... i am frustrated with the kind of journalism that has been taught... it is not right to be objective about an article... especially a news article... u will have to take journalism classes agen... that article was sooo one sided... and that kind of attitude is not acceptable... the power of words, even in writing is powerful... i should know.. i used to live by that mantra... do not underestimate my knowledge even though i decided not to continue under your wing... and right now.. i am really assessing the fact that i made the right decision... hence, i would have been corrupted by your distorted views...

i ask anyone who has any problems with regards to our tarp issue to justify their comments first... u dont even know wht ur talking about.. so dont generalize the actions of a certain group of people as mandated by us... that is unfair... accept that u are ignorant of the situation... if u need information..many of us are ever soo willing to clear things up... believe me.. pull that stunt on me, that action u did to my fellow member.. u will experience my wrath.... i have come to accept my responsibilty to defend the integrity of my party... and i dnt care wat u think...

do not try me... ull never win.. i am sooo pissed right now...

RESOLUTIONS...

2005-01-26T09:39:00.002-08:00

JANUARY
"study in advance..."
progress: sooo far.. npapansin daw ni tots ko... na ngagawa ko un... hope i keep it up... khit alm ko n nasa hyper mode ang utak ko parati... which i thnk.. in a sense.. is good... i get to study.. but weird.. in front of the pc...
1st week
"read...."
2nd week
"reread..."
3rd week
"dont be laxed... and indolent... just... read."
4th week
" i am therefere banned from going to mcdo, kfc, jollibee.."
argument:
1. need to save money for shoesieeess..
2. need to save money..
3. need to lose weight.. ( i am utterly depressed right now..)

Febuary
" Stop... inhale... fresh air.."
arguments:
1. med exam.. no stir.. clean lungs..
2. GE... lotsa running... exhaustion induced tension...
3. present a good exmple..
4. get tired of it.. eventually...
1st week
" understnd physics more..and sleep.."
2nd week
" nstp... focus"
3rd week
" continue... studying.."

--- canot continue anymore... my pink bed is calling me... i am tired.. please o brain of mine.. let me sleep..

RESOLUTIONS...

2005-01-26T09:39:00.001-08:00

avance a reconnaitre

2005-01-25T10:02:00.000-08:00

je panique, mon cerveau est en mode hyper. je ne peux pars dormir, parce que ja' l'alot dans mon esprit. pourquoi est-ce que tout est si errone'? pourquoi ma vie doit-elle etre un desordre total en ce moment? j'ai besoin de quelque chose detendre mon esprit tous ces conflits avec me activities et universitaires est assez pour me vendre aliene. je dois etre libre de ces situations facheuses mas quand?

hahaa.. im amazed... this is french.. what if i write all my entries in different languages??? hehehehe!!! that would be sooooo fun..plus no one will be reading my blog coz they cannot decipher it.. hahahaha ! such evilness... hehhee..

bad day.. really bad day.. i was hyperventilating kninang morning. because of stupid lab...and now... THIS... it is bad.. soooooooooo bad...now i know how it feels to make decisions that will really affect ur beliefs and principles... i hope everything will be fyn.. as the time goes by.. i jst cannot explain wat is happening to me... i am sooo stressed... and the term is just beginning.. i am no imagining wat will happen to me when the elctions come.. damn. STRESS.. goooo away!!!

of baths.. and meetings and NEMO..

2005-01-24T04:43:00.001-08:00

hayyy.. life.. is such an incomprehensible contradiction. anyway... i am not yet done with wat im really supposed to do.. and im really procrastinating right now.. i just took a bath.. and it feels good to study when u just took a bath... :D how amzing.. :P well... intphil exam just finshed.. so far the quiz was relatively easy... i hope.. i could life my pen out of the paper.. damness... i want hiram key... i wanna read it.. ala davinci code daw eh... o syyyeeeet! hehehehe... o well... ahhh... later nlng.. im sooo dripping wet pa.. :D

okay.. lost will to study/// i am currently waiting for my shark bones to dry... damn... sooo tgal... hayyy.. okei... i drewn nemo..me like nemo coz nemo's sooooo cute... hahaha! :D naamaze ako... i thnk i have to thank sir leaño for my painting slash artisitcs skills... khit di sya masydo ngtuturo dti.. he let us develop the skill that we were most comfortable with.. i remembre my painting classes.. the smell of linseed oil and thinner.. and the perpetual stains of oil paint and clay of paris is my uniform... hayy... i remember unleashing all ur restrctions and seeing things the do not exist in the naked eye... painting is such fun... i miss it... unfortunately.. i have no more tym to study painting... or to even paint and draw.. except in my complab class.. where i was soo compelled to draw all the specimens.. hehehe... art is sooo therapeutic...

NOTE TO SELF: get a coloring book... be like a child agen.

now.. back to reality. i have to study and not waste my time on nonsense... hehehe... well.. probably later... im hungry... damn. i just got sick then suddenly my stomach crves for food... im getting fat agen... damn... lessen food intake.

the best weekend ever!!!

2005-01-23T06:58:00.000-08:00

hayyy.. sa wakas... heheheh! soooo far... this was the best weekend i ever had... parang lht ng problems ko ehhh naayos na.... kaya im happy na rin... khit na im sooo swamped with school work.. both academic and extra curriculars... hayyyyy... sobra... pero masaya na rin... hehehe... ( oo.. masaya at bati na tyo.. alm ko nbabasa mo toh.. once in a while.. tma na cguro kadramahan ko dito... okay na...). its hard to be stuck in the past... that i learned.. that's why im living in the present...hehehe.... im sooo trying to quit na... but its soooo hard.... o well.... thou shall not give up....

last saturday.. pumunta akong atc at ngukay ukay!!! hahaha!!! and i realized na papasa ko ng CBE.. hahaha!!! ang barat tlga nmin.. as in... soo far.. malaki nmn na raise nming money... kaya masaya na din... mei pera na tpat... tpos after nun... we went back to school for the ethics of an atheist talk.... sooobrang boring.... NAKATULOG AKO. as in... mahimbing... hahahaha. ksi nmn noh... hndi nmn tlga talk ang bingay nya... lecture... bad trip... as in sana bngyan nlng nya kmi ng copy ng power point nya... tpos kumopya nlng kmi.. boring tlga.. afterwards... bday ni krys starfish!!! weeee!!! sobrang yummy food sa century park... as in busog kming lht... tipong hndi ka mkakatayo... tpos tawa p kmi ng tawa... hahahhaha! kasi si rache eh.... SANA!!!! hehehehe... bwahaha! EVILNESS... is me. and then i went home na and read the quest for meaning.. and ive been reading it for 3 hours na... and 3 times already.. and sobrng... nkakaburaot na ung libro... sana i get a high grade... lht nlng ng minors ko tres lng nkukuha ko... hirap nmn kei timbreza di ng bibigay ng 4... labo tlga... grrrr.. ayoko ng magfinals sa knya noh... please.. buong libro iffinals mo... ohhh please... no thanks...

i have sooo much to do... and im so tamad to do them... kaya lh delayed... di ko alam kung ano uunahin ko.. anoo ba to.... y?!?!?! am i sooo addicted to procrastination.. this is not right... sooooooo wrong... remember... PRIORITIES....

naamze ako sa children's mass.. as in... sobrng.. natuwa ako... hehehehe.... ang cute ng mga bata.. pero sobrng cute pa din ng cuzn ko.. labshu yoan!!! hahahha!!!! natutuwa din sna aika, krys at charm sa knya.. hahaha!!! hayyy... okay.. dpt 4 na kmi dun.. exceed na kmi ng 10 hours eh... hehehehe.... sana hndi mawala tong motivation ko hanggng finals.. usually ksi pag napapagod nko.. tamad nko eh.. lyk now... hayyyyyyy....

im sooo disoriented right now...

biglaan

2005-01-19T18:03:00.000-08:00

Nandito nakaukit pa rin sa puso ko
Nang sabihin mong huwag na lang
Nandito nakatatak pa rin sa isip ko
Kung paano mo tinalikuran ang lahat

Kay bilis... 'Bat umalis...
Nakaka-miss
Nabigla lang...

Di ko man lamang nalaman
na mawawala
Nabigla lang
Di mo man lamang naisip na idahan-dahan
Di ako sanay sa biglaan
Unti-unti na lang sanang
nawala

Hindi ba natin kayang magkunwari
At sabihing sige na lang
Hindi ba natin kayang dayain
Ang mga yakap sa tuwing lumalamig

Di ako sanay sa biglaan
unti-unti na lang sanang
nawala.....

.... im sick today... and agen.. im not the healthiest person in the world... tpos ang baba pa ng grade ko sa complab... pero kmi pa daw ung highest... such irony.. nkakainis... sooobra.... sayang ang pingaralan ko.. tpos mei exam na sa intphil sa monday.. kelngn ko n mgbasa... tpos sa chem nmn sa friday... kelngn ko itaas un!!! a new fone is at stake!!! sabi skin ni mama.. pag nd DL ako this term.. NEW FONE!!! hehehhe... ang weird.. para akong loka kung mgpalit ng telepono.. hehehe.. tpos ibibli daw nya ako ng digicam sa summer... hehehe... masaya pa rin pla pag mei skit ka noh... pero hndi rin.. sobrng bored ako dito sa bahay.. gsto kong lumabas pero mei lagnat ako... waaaahhhh!!! im soo fragile nga tlga.. wala na tuloy ako mgawa... aside from being onlyn the whole day...nghanap ng kung anu anung kanta... at ngsulat ng kung anu anu... hehe..:D mmaya ako ay mgaaral na ng physics... mei motivation nko! yessshhhh!!! mahal ko na tlga blockmates ko.. pagkatpos nila ng compana dumiretso n sila dito at akoy dinalw... sooo sweet.. ( mae.. salamt sa sopas ha!!! soobra!!! raphy... salamt sa paggigitara mo at akoy naaliw pansamantala... eshynee!!! tnx po for everything... sis wics... salamt dini sa dalw khit alm kong bad trip ka sa complab..) o ayan... mahal ko na sila.. pero salamt din pla kina kia... at chars.. na sobrng hehee.. sinamahan ako buong umaga.. hehe!! oo na.. wala na kayong pasok.. hehe! :)

soooo thats wat happened to me today... sana tomorrow im not sick na so i could see them... hehehe.. sa bagay.. ewn ko nlng kung di pko gumaling. sang katutak ung gamot ko dito noh!!!! heheheh... THINK: NEW FONE!!!!!

me and the habit im trying to break..

2005-01-18T05:08:00.000-08:00

i would have stopped... but if its not for my ever sooo generous blockmate( thanks alot rache...)... i still have the liberty to inhale those cancer sticks all day long... i really dunno why i started doing it agen.. perhaps it because of frustration and all those tralala stuff.. my god.. i need to atleast set my priorities straight... PRIORITIES... i know those nicotine cancer sticks are bad for me.. but i couldnt find an antidepressant that's both cheap and available everywhere i go.. i know.. quitting is hard.. but i have to do it sumday right... or mayber perhaps wen i finish those sticks left... ( sayang kasi.. pera din un...). i remember, when i was in high school, i abhorr these sticks.. but now, they are my bestfriends... i mean its sooo sad... depending on them.. i know they will not bring me any good. and my favorite teacher has been doing his best to atleast reprimand me... yeah right.. me and my hard headed self.. its a joy how people tolerate me and at the same time... reprimand me.. such thoughtfulness.. o joyousness.. :D hehe.. but still... i was awakened by my not sooo me behavior wen i was late for a quiz in compana... SHET!!!! i really have to rethink my priorities.. and set things straight... ( and o.. i was late coz i was sick...) and the fact that i am getting sicker and sicker by the day.. ( in case u dont know..) is sooo not helping... I VOMIT EVERYTHING I EAT... good thing that the clinic has a stash of plasil ready for me.. wenever i feel that vomitous belch feeling... sooo EEEEWWWW... i dont know whats happening to me and my body... watever it is.. please.. go away... ill behave na..

Things to remember:
1. arrive on time...
2. always b prepared for class
3. if u feel that u havent studied enough, u really havent studied enough..
4. start doing wat ur suppose to do..
5. ur here to study... then DO IT!
6. do not.. i repeat.. do not be INDOLENT!
7. stop with the cancer sticks.. slightly.. slowly.. yet surely..
8. do not accept mediocrity..
9. be a little bit more organized..
10. breathe.. relax.. take ur time.. itll be easier if you die that way.

i already sed i give up.... why not try.. I QUIT.. i know sumone will be very happy... ( amin na... iaiaia!) and if it doesnt work.. atleast i tried...

sayang tlga...

2005-01-16T05:10:00.000-08:00

hehehe... baka po ngttaka kayo.. ako po ay isang adik!!!! hehehe.. di nio ba nppnsin na araw araw ako mei pot session.. hahaha... asus!! joke lng po!!! :D nkakatawa knina.. ngllkad ksi ako sa agno, at bglang narinig ko ang isang ale, bglang payat tong bbaeng to... hahahaha!! soree ha!! epekto po ng hndi pgkain!! baboy po ksi ako dati e!ngaun.. ako po ay ngpapakabiik nln, hnggng sa maging manok nko.. o dba?!?! hehehe.. timing na timing.. heheh.. mga taong pakialamera tlga sa mundo... hahahah!

ako ay tumambay sa starbucks ng anim na oras.. take note.. kalahating arw.. o dba?!?! san ka pa.. starbucks+hangin = heaven... hahhahaa!!! masarap ang buhay... kaya ayoko ng magisip ng mga bagay bagay... ngpapagulo lng... sobra... tigil muna.. para maayos ko muna ang aking nakalulugmok na kalagayan... naawa na ako sa aking sarili.. kelngn ko na munang sumaya.. ayoko na muna ng gnito...

hayyyyyyy... sna pala tumuloy nlng akong pandacan.. para di na toh nanyari... sa bagay... ewn ko.. its bound to happen... pero ito lng.. hndi mo inisip mga sinabi mo... aun lng... okei na sana eh.. kapow lng bglaan eh... ayon... patay patay... as much as possible ayokong magalit lalo na sa iyo... hndi ko hobby un eh.. pasttime lng.. (labo?!?!) pero seryoso.. wala sa nature ko un.. wag kng magalala.. may second chance un.. di ko nga lng alm keln.. basta.. pag wala n akong iniisp... at derecho,, ay straight n pla ang aking buhay... sayang ang friendships... pero madli lng un ibalik... kaso nga lng... the trust... o well... baka sakali.. ipgdadasal ko nlng... syang tlga.. ako nanhihinayang... ewn ko nlng tlga...

ang pagkakaibgan ng pla ay hndi binabase sa pananaw ng ibng tao... kung ayun ang basehan.. hndi ito tunay na pagkakaibgan...

reminiscing 4th yr na naman ba toh.. o well.. balik ako sa aking dating mundo... khit magulo... masaya ako...

everyhting is okay..

2005-01-15T13:20:00.000-08:00

ive been reading my blog entries from my other blog... heheheh... life is a cycle nga.. always nlng nanyayari skin toh... always nlng ako naiiwan... always nlng ako nalulungkot.. pag ngkaproblema ako.. tmbak tlga... but still... sa lht ng always na un... nkakabangon ako... i believe there is still hope for me to be happy... the way i used to be... as my frend said... ako daw ang kawalan... its their loss, not mine... i dnt need the assurance of sumone to be happy... i can be happy with myself... i just need to concentrate to be able to push for my dreams... i am determined now.. as determined as u are... i am not a pushover.. nor a mediocre person... i believe i will still survive... and i will succeed.. in any dream or goal that i pursue.. i will succeed.. im used to that... i must now prove to myslf that i am worth sumthing.. and i believe i am worth sumthing... because i am not worthless... i have so many gifts that i could share with others... its just a matter of determination...

i am thankful, for everything... atleast now i can smile and not think about all those things bothering me.. although i wasnt able to cry... i feel relieved... thank god... hope this is okay.. i know.. everything will be fine..

i give up..

2005-01-15T05:03:00.000-08:00

i am giving up.. i know its not personal... but im soo tired of getting back how things used to be.. im tired of bringing back the past.. im tired of hoping and waiting.. im tired, of missing you always... im tired of thinking of ways... im giving up... i give up on the fact that things are not the same.. i give up.. i am soo tired.. of things.. of not being happy.. of being too attached.. of waiting for you to make things better.. i tired of being sad... and depressed.. im tired of worrying... im tired of not being able to concentrate... im tired of remembering... and learning to forget...im tired of denying the fact that sumthing is not right.. im tired of being too dependent... to attached agen.. im just soo tired of everything right now.... i know i may be giving these all up.... but.. i still wont give up on you...

have you ever had that feeling that you want to fade away into lah lah land... and never be seen.. have you ever felt tired of hiding the fact that ur hurt... i know i may sound shallow... but still... im not used to this... uve had soo much impct on my life that ive been soo attached to you... then... gone... i wish i had sumone to talk to about my problems.. i wish i had sumone to share my experiences.. i wish and wish for a lot of things.. but one thing remains constant.. that sumone is you... i am not the type to confront people if i have any problems with them... or if they have hurt me... u dnt even know how much i needed u then... when the world i knew came crashing... when the life i knew faded away... i guess ull never know now... i hate the times when i badly needed sumone to whom i feel so comfortable with.. but the persons i expect to comfort me are not there... i feel that i am always alone... i never felt that before.. now.. even though i am surrounded by a barrage of happy smiling faces... i still feel a twinge of sadness... it is soo hard to keep on pretending ur happy... when ur not... it soo hard to wake up everyday... readying urself so that ppl wont know who u are.. who i really am... u know very well how i dont trust people easily.. especially people like u.. but u made it soo easy for me to trust you... soo easy... u were different from them.. as i recalled... im in so much oblivion right now... i dont know what to do... im distorted... and i really need u... seems u dnt need me.. tis not like i could easily go away... i could have left a long time ago.. but ddnt want to... i didnt want to leave u.. because i myslf dnt wana be left alone... but i guess in this pandemonium of thought.. there are no clear roads... only detours.. i must have took a right one, coz i met you... then got lost and trapped in a dead end... and end... a wall.. a boundary... a solitary abyss of lost souls much like mine...

im tired... and im giving up... forgive me.

i wish...

2005-01-14T06:03:00.000-08:00

You'll Be Safe Here
Rivermaya

You'll be safe here
Rivermaya
(words and music: rico blanco)

Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall i be

Chorus:

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

Chorus:

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here

When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here

i wishh i could feel this... to feel safe with someone.. to feel secured knowing that someone cares for you.... someone who'll be there when ur sad.. sick or even happy... i wish this song was for me... i know i wish for a lot of things.. and most arent too much to ask... but i really need motivation right now.. and i still wish i was safe... make me see the real me and make me strive to be the best that i can... i wish...

EEEEEWWWWW!

2005-01-11T04:12:00.000-08:00

im soo bored.. i lost all my energy to study.. it flew away.. please come back... kadiri kasi ung prof nmin eh.. talk about manyak.. eewww... please lng.. set ur sights on sumone else.. not me.. yuck tlga.. i think im knda losing my dignity na... aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!

STUDY MODE.. so not me..

2005-01-10T07:48:00.000-08:00

hayyy.. im in study mode today.. and im in a roll.. i finished 60 pages of complab and now im readin my compana book... WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!? o well.. atleast.. i got to study i advnce.. hahahah!!! amazingness.. sooo not me.. but this is good right... hehehe... damn.. our not being the way we were used to be have these adverse effects on my brain which leads e to technically good things.. but some however.. are extremely bad... o well.. but atleast.. i got to study in advnce pa rin.. i hope i get the hang of this.. ummm insanity??? hehehe.. im sooo in a roll... hehehe.. i like this new me.. minus the C10H14N2 part.. hehhe.. and i got a perfect score in our 1st org quiz!!! huwaw!!! i must be doing sumthing good!?!? my year is starting really well.. uhmm.. aside from the fact that my bestfrend and i kinda drfted apart.. well that happens right??? and besides.. i perfectly understnd that he wants to focus.. on things.. o well.. i hope i get to be a DL this term.. by hook or by crook.. despite the many responsibilities that i have.. and all the activities that i have to handle.. and stuff i have to do... i will not fail anything... nooooo!!! failure is not acceptable!!! o well.. i really like this song.. it reminds me of a lot of things.. things that really makes me happy... i wish i could be that happy agen... happinness for me is sooo forced, nowadays ha.. wish i cud smile agen.. the way i used to, hide away the sadness, and just be filled with bliss... o well.

" Your Love "

you're the one that never lets me sleep
to my mind, down to my soul you touch my lips
you're the one that i can't wait to see
with you here by my side i'm in ecstasy

i am all alone without you
my days are dark without a glimpse of you
but now that you came into my life
i feel complete
the flowers bloom, my morning shines
and i can see

[Chorus:]
your love is like the sun
that lights up my whole world
i feel the warmth inside
your love is like the river
that flows down through my veins
i feel the chill inside

every time i hear our music play
reminds me of the things that we've been through
in my mind i can't believe it's true
but in my heart the reality is you

i am all alone without you
my days are dark without a glimpse of you
but now that you came into my life
i feel complete
the flowers bloom, my morning shines
and i can see

[Chorus:]
your love is like the sun
that lights up my whole world
i feel the warmth inside
your love is like the river
that flows down through my veins
i feel the chill inside

the stars will cry..

2005-01-09T02:53:00.000-08:00

the stars will cry.. the blackest tears tonight..and this is the moment that ive lived for.. i can smell the ocean air... here i am.. pounring my heart into these rooftops... just a ghost in the world.. that's exactly.. what i need. from up here the city lights burn.. like a thousand miles of fire, and im here to sing an anthem.. or our dying days...

hayyy.. so sad.. nkakafrustrate nlng tlga, nkakapanghinayang lnga tlga.. pero wala nmn tyong mgagawa.. gnun tlga buhay.. minsan iiwan ka.. kaya matuwa nlng tyo.. nkakapagod din nmng isipin ang mga bgay na hndi nmn tlga importante sa buhay mo ngaun.. o well.. that's life..

IGNITION<<<

2005-01-07T06:26:00.000-08:00

hmm.. just watched ocean's twelve.. and it was sooooo asteeeg.. the twists of the movie was really really good... :D o well... i took a tiny break from studying.. and laid back a little.. now im gonna have to start reading my complab book na... damness... hayyy... o well.. life is a rhetorical thing.. its a good think that i kinda like my sujects this term.. i just hope i get good grades... im not really expecting to be a dl this term since i have all these responsibilities... but i just hope to have a decent grade sumwat above 2.5... :D o well.. dreams are free... :p.. ill just continue this later..

incomprehensible contradiction..

2005-01-06T04:52:00.000-08:00

agen... i feel so stressed already... okay.. nakakainis ung teacher nmin sa complab.. does he expect us to do self study the whole term.. hello?!?!? COMPARATIVE ANATOMY un!!! its not sumthing that u study all by urself... but i guess it works for me.. because im really forced to study harder and to fathom every detail of that mind boggling little brown book which was born to raise hell and bring me..( not hopefully) with it.. hmmm.. and then there was compana.. which was okay... i really hope i dnt lose persistence in the following weeks to come.. i really have to balance lots of things.. i guess its a good thing that im taking the time to take initiative in my studies.. not i tend to study in advance.. which was soooo not like me.. i like to cram.. but i guess people do change... and im in a lot of pressure.. and i like pressure... i crave for pressure and live for pressure until i get beaten by it...

sana kaya ko tong panindigan... i have chosen to accept that much responsibilty.. so now.. i must fulfill it.. sna hndi bumaba grades ko this term... pero nakakainis parin ang complab nmin.. sobra... nakakainis sya.. grrr.. ang skit pa nmn sa bulsa ng term na toh...almost 3 thou na ngagastos ko sa books and school supplies plng ha.. nkakahiya na sa mga mgulang ko... hayyy...

im kinda reading philosophy... and i like the paradox of human existence... life really is an incomprehensible contradiction... now i have to finish reading the next 10 more pages or so... patience my dearie...

adrift...

2005-01-05T07:30:00.000-08:00

im sensing something different from u... i dont know exctly wat is is... but it is different... i dont know if its good or bad... i have no idea.. i just feel it... but wat do u care.. as if ud care about my feelings anyway... this is just sooo sad... ur drifting away.. or is it the other way around..

im feeling stressed already.. the term hasnt officially started yet.. why am i like this??? im soo frustrated with everything.. then i tend to drive myself to the brink of insanity... im sooo not happy about it... but i have to accept that i have certain responsibilities that i must perform... if i revert to studying well again.. i might neglect the other stuff... if i concentrate on the extra curricular stuff...my acads might suffer... i need to balance everything.. i need to be able to exert more effort and assert myself to watever responsibilty i have.. i need to change my old habits... i need to think in advance.. i need to change.. for the sake of me... i need to... i have to... but first.. i have to get well... im still sick... i have to keep all these in mind... i have to... its a must..

life is SUNNY..

2005-01-04T06:18:00.000-08:00

hmm.. hahah.. i have sun na pla.. so technically.. i need a new fone na 2nd hand.. and yes kia.. sau ang blue n cortez... akin ung pink.. heheh.. o dba??? hehehe.. :) anyway.. wala lng... keln ba tayo bibili? hehehhe.. sna mei pera ako by that time.. :p ang weird knina.. kia n i wer talking sa cel.. with our sun.. hehe! unlimited!! yeah!! pero mgkachat din kmi.. heheheh!!! asteeg noh!!! damn.. mei classes na tomorrow.. and wala pa din ako magawa.. at tamad pa din ako.. sana hndi bumaba grades ko this term... or sana maganda sya at wala akong ibgsak.. sana makaya ko pa... sana umabot din ako ng DL.. wish ko lng.. para medyo naman unlimited nko next school yr ksi mas praning nko by that tym.. as in... hayy.. sana makaya ng powers ko toh.. o well.. i hope...

AD ASTRA.. to stars and beyond..

2005-01-04T03:58:00.001-08:00

hmmm... it has begun...

transition from a high school happy go lucky gurl.. to a college geeky weird gurl... nahh.. kiddin.. anyway.. its back to school agen.. my home aaway from home.. hahahah... im expecting this term to be more challenging... than ever... GENERAL ELECTIONS.. hahah! :D

hmmm.. so far. the year started with a bang... not a good bang.. a very very bad one.. my world just kinda fell apart... as in... the unthinkable happened... which was really... soooo not good.... hmmm.. then i entered college.. and realized that i have potential in a lot of stuff.. i just wasnt exerting them.. hayyy... anyway.. i met great friends that i will never forget... :D hehehe... so now i guess i really have to exert more effort while working on the GE... heheheh.. i feel like im gonna be sooo stressed this term.. as in.. damnes.. :D o weelll...

hayyy.. ang mga bitch tlga sa mundo.. nkakainis...

hmmmm.... wala na akong msulat.. ang boring na naman ng buhay ko... nkakainis..o cge. bukas nlng.. baka medyo productive nko.. heheh..

ITS OVER.. FIN..

2004-12-16T04:27:00.000-08:00

hayyy.. atlast, 2nd term is finally OVER.. as in.. all my hardships.. and all the pressure.. nadissolve kagad... hehhehe.. :) hayy.. so recap tyo ng mga nanyari this term.. :) hmmm.. sympre, heheh. ngkaroon ako ng bestfrnd... hehehe.. kaya aun... medyo tumino nko ng onti.. tpos,, ahhh,, i faced INOCHE2.. and i guess i lost.. hahaha.. damn!!!! o well... seriosly, pinghirapan ko tong term n toh.. sineryoso ko sya compared to 1st term.. hayyy.. ewn ko ba.. bkit gnito... hayyy tlga. basta.. tntry ko ang best ko ngaun term n toh.. nbburn out na nga ako eh... nwei, kahapon, ngkaron ng xmas party block ko dito smin.. ahaha! ang saya saya!!! :)) as in!!! ehehhee.. parang sobrng close nmin.. at mafefeel mo tlga un... :) hehehhe... napakaswerte ko tlga sa block ko.. khit anu.. kaya naman pagdaanan, basta lht kmi mgkakasama.. hayyy.. :)

i am now GRADE CONSCIOUS..

2004-12-14T06:16:00.001-08:00

last day of finals tomrrow... judgement day for me.. pag nhirapan ako sa chem , i will thorw all my hopes of being a DL.. sana po lord umabot ako... pwede nmn eh... hayyy.. i am now officially grade conscious.. and my gpa ranges from 2.6 - 2.9.. sad sad reality.. damness.. hope the subject which im hoping wil pull up my grade will REALLY.. pull them up... hayy.. so much for introso and engl2... i need u... huhuhuhuh.... help me in my agony.. give me a nyc gft this chrstmas... i beg of you... huhuhh.. o well. hayy.. noooooooo! atleast my hope was rekindles in inolab.. i actually have a chance to get a 3.5.. like.. WHOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAA! hehehe...
:)
amazing! o well.. chem time.. i will sell myslef to you.. whoever you are... sir nikko!!! pleasEEe! have mercy on us poor mindless beings inhabiting the planet called HUMBIO! :)

i am being GRADE CONSCIOUS...

2004-12-13T07:49:00.000-08:00

argh.. di nmn tlga ako GC >> (grade conscious).. but why cant i help being that way... why?!?! i keep on computing for my gpa and my grades at different subjects.. this is just way tooo depressing.. i dont feel sleepy.. prbably coz i already slept.. such sweet slumber.. atleast i gave my body a rest... after how many hours of bombardin it with caffeine, nicotine and stuff... and also, i feel that my mind is way too exhausted and is trying to demoralize me into being a stupid person.. because it doesnt wat to cooperate with me... damness. hayyyy... i seriously want to be a DL... but i think that feat it near impossble. unless i get a 2 in chem or a 3 in inolab.. which i peceive is not goin to happen... and i really need a 4 in engltwo... damn.. to atleast compensate my lack of integrity in botanny.. damn u
! hw dare people call me a botanist when i am seriously getting a low grde in my exam.. damn! traumatizing and at the same tym demoralizing.. hayy.. then here comes CHEMISTRY.. with all its glorious splendor.. ready to spread terror and destruction... hhhhhhhhhhmmmmm. must i give a damn?

im free from the shackles that you have bound me... FREEEEEEE! Or am i??

2004-12-11T21:36:00.000-08:00

this is blog worthy.. as in the blog worthiest of all... hayyyy.. regardless of all the stress that i am currently feeling... hayy... masaya ako ngaun at kahapon.. :)nttouch ako... hayyyyyyy... ang cute ng regalo nya skin... perfect for sleeping.. hehehe... inducing happy thoughts and pleasnt dreams...:) pero sa totoo lng.. mas natouch ako sa letter nya... heheheh.. i never really realized all the consequences of my actions till now.. i feel so happy...

nga pla, went to RP yesterday with bestpwend and bought lotsa gifffieees.. for blockies. hayyy.. as usual, ubos pera.. pero ok lng.. bonding tym na naman kming 2.. hehehe.. nkakaktaw.. ang daldal pa nya.. ayan tuloy.. nbgay nya ung gft nya ng di oras... hehehehe... :) pero mas nakakatwa ung mga reaksyon nya knina.. hehehe... nashock daw sya.. turns out na ung regalo ko ay ang pinka inaasam nyang bagay since fourth yr pa sya.. hahahha.. ang galing ko palng manghula..AMAZING!

hayyyyyyyyy.. and NoW! i finished na our research paper!!! hayyyy.. amazing.. atleast... medyo.. okay na.. wala na masyadong mabgat.. un sa botalab nlng.. pero madli n un! hayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy... BLISS..

i might be goin to starbucks later.. mga 4... to get a dose of caffeine.. so that ill not fall asleep later..
hayyy.. today is the start of the end of my life... hayyyyyyyyyyyyy. wala lng.hell week... the real hell week... last week pnga lng bangag nko eh... as in.. wat more pa kaya... hayyyyyyy. i hope i pass all my subjects...

life is LA SALLE is not a bed of ROSES

2004-12-10T11:47:00.000-08:00

haha.. 4 am na ngaun.. kakgising ko lng.. weird.. any way.. leche kahapon... bota test muntik nko mkatulog. at di ko pa alam ang mga pingsasagot ko.. bkit gnun?!?! no!!! huuhu... tpos pagktpos ng exm.. sobrng inantok nko... at bangag nko kagabi s sobrng skit ng ulo ko.. di kasi ako nkatulog.. anu ba yn.. nocturnal na ba akong tao??? o tlgang ewn ko.. abnormal na ang katawan ko... mas gsto n nya ng mtulog ng umga at mgising ng gabi.. hayyyy.... i need a break.... as in.. ung isng buong araw na makatulog ako.. saobrng saya ako... as in! pero... ewn ko... hayyy..ang hirap mging estudynte ng lasalle.. sobrng hirap... pero masya.. pero pg dting ng mga gntiong panhon... mahirap na tlga.. akala nio mga bobo mga tao sa lasalle... akala nio lng un!!!! kung alam nio lng ung anung klaseng phirap ang gngawa nila smin.. hayyy.. inhumane..total violation of human rights.. to subjecta student to three long CONSECUTIVE long exams in a day.. and to bombard them with numerous papers... is inhuman!!!!!! sobra... hayyy... damn! why!??!?! o well... bukas.. study tym.. study...

Reyia,,, onting tiis nlng... meron ka nlng 3 araw na papahirapan mo srili mo... kaya mo yn.... 3 araw nlng.. finals na lng.. pagakatpos nun.. masaya ka na... hayyy.. damn.. leche. gumawa ka na ng research paper nio.. tpusin mo na... icondisyon mo na utak mo.. RESEARCH PAPER>>...hayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

IM a freakazoid paranoid geeky gurl.. who really needs to get a high grade in BOTA

2004-12-09T02:23:00.000-08:00

heheheh... happy day today.. maganda ang comment ng teacher nmin sa introso presentation nmin. pero in fairness.. matino nga sya.. hahaha! galing ko tlga pag cramming... dapt tulog nko ngaun.. pero bgla akong napaisp kung anu ung mga nilagay ko sa blog ko at baka mei mabasang hndi maganda... hehhee... kelngn ingatn... hayyy.. buti nlng pla wala... kala ko tlga kung anu na ung mga nilalagay ko dito.. wala pla.. heeh.. buti din walng archives toh.. kung hndi.. nabasa na lht ng snulat ko.. hehhee,, hayyy.. :) amazing is me.. :) o well... :) hehehhe... supposedly.. ngaaral nko ng botalab ngaun eh.. unfortunately.. my fickle mind and miniscule brain does not allow such action right now... BUTI KA PA BESTPWEND NKAPAGARAL NA... ( i am assuming na nababasa mo to.. ) o well.. i try my best not to cram.. but wat can i do?!?!? procrastination takes out the best of me... i work WELL.. as in WELL.. under pressure... nga pla,, sa wakas.. i got to edit that stupid abstract n walng kwenta at bara bara.. medyo satsfied nmn ata si ms sa sinabi nya knina at inutusan p nya sina mae n hiramin ung amin para kopyahin daw... soo far.. this day has been nyc.. and fun... and not at all depressing... i hope makaaral ako ng matino... at sana hndi ako bumgsak.. ( lord.. please lng.. ) at ska.. ewn ko.. basta aun na un.. nakakaamze na... sna masama nlng ung trig ska math ko.. wala lang.. hayy.. i got 2 Very goods today... sana lagi nlng mei gnun... i dnt wana be a failure anymore... shmpre noh, ndegrade tlga un moraL ko nung binalik ni ms ung abstract smin at sabi it needs more work... damn!! hndi tma un!! ive been a writer ever since i was in grade school... i have joined lots of writing contests.. if i couldnt get a measly abstract right.. then THERE MUST BE SUMTHING WRONG WITH ME... seriously... okay.. nafefeel ko na msyado n mahabo toh at kelng ko na tlga itulog toh... mamaya nlng pag gising ko.. hayyy....

.................

a perianth is calyx and corolla taken as one...
collective term for stamen is androecium...
collective term for pist is gynoecium...

botanny and botalab exams are tomorrow.. and i dnt think i can study well coz im in pain and i am sick... painfuly sick.. these are the days when i dont like being a gurl... pero that's life.. still.. im in pain.. unbearable pain... iwah itll go away...

pointless day...,. but FUN! WISH LIST..

2004-12-08T08:32:00.000-08:00

went to RP today.. alone.. by myself.. buti nlng at pinyagan ako ni bestpwend... hehehe... too bad nga lng at di ako nakapag simba ngaun.. ( note to self: confess this.. ) anyway,.. ayown.. bkit ba ang hirap regaluhan ng mga lalaki?!?! wats wid d guys na sobrng hirap nilang pilian ng gift.. ksi i feel that they tend 2 dwell more on the monetary value of ur gft rather than its sentimental value.. o well.. atleast.. shopping for guys is done... got my bestpwend a really cool thing..hehe.. hope he likes it..

kiaiaiaia.... :) i got u somthing really cuteness.. like me!!! hehehe!!! :)

hayyy.. okay... bti na kmi ni mae... wala lng... im not really good at getting angry at ppl..i mean.. i dnt have any pride at all.. damn.

hmmm.. i still need to buy gfts for other blockmates.. :)

Revised christmas list..:
1. still.. the cuteness teddy bear from humor post.. i HEART it na..
2. piglet n stuff toy.. i dont know why but i suddenly have an inkling for pigs!?!?!
3. oceanus perfume in bath and body shop - 595.. :)o kaya ung white musk..
4. still more teddy bears from blue magic... ung mga teddy bear n knwari tulog.. bagay un skin.. seryoso.. basta teddy bear.
5. lip gloss ng bath and body shop.. khit tinted.. o kaya.. raspberry nlng..
6. purple stuff.. agen... bsta purple.. im Uber happy na!
7. wallet.. as in matinong wallet..ung pahaba.. at manipis lng..
8. waaaaaaah! chucks na mei design na medyo off white... pero sobrang cuteness!!!
9. cd... ng jars of clay... o kaya eraserheads anthology... o kaya.. rock easy n cd..
10.a decent book.. something that would entertain me sa chrstmas vacation...
11. bag.. na cute.. hehe.
12. shirt sa artwork!!!! hehehhe!
13. PERA!!
14. gst ko pa ng cap sa reebok.
15. casing ng fone.
16. angel n stufftoy.. hanap kayo.. :)
17. picture frame na cute.. ksi llgyan ko ng picture!
18. maroon 5 n cd, frappo lippi, ska sarah maclahlan.
19. or bsta sumthing na galing nlng sa inyo at bukal sa loob nio n bngay skin.. ako ay masaya na.. :)
20. DISKMAN... ( alm nio ba ng pinromise ko sa sarili ko na pg n DL ako ngaung term... bibilihn ko sarili ko nito.. but no!!! wala nkong pera.. di ako nakaipon.
21. wala... world peace.. hehe.

hahaha.. naisip ko.. ang kulit pla. hahha..wala lng.. reregaluhan ko ba buong block ko?!??! wala lng?!??! :) hayyy.. kung di ko lng mahal ung mga un eh. hehhehe. :)
hayyy.. sna po lord masaya ang pasko ngaun. ehehe. :)

CHRISTMAS WISH LIST

2004-12-06T06:20:00.000-08:00

- teddy bear from Humor Post n may shirt n Somebody loves you.... me.. CUTENESS.
- teddy bear n purple.. basta teddy bear.. nangongolekta ako.. o khit ANU..stufftoy.
- CD.. rock easy, sarAH maclahlan - afterglow, actaully, nakalimutan ko na ung gusto kong CD.. pero nghhnap pa din ako ng lumang cd ng jars of clay!
- something purple.. okay. purple freakazoid.
- something useful... ung tipong beneficial namn sya sa stay ko sa lasalle.. like slippers.. in need of slippers.. tshirt... hha.a refugee baga.
- cute stuff... sumthing na mpapa.. aWWW ako.. hehehe... nangongolekta din ako ng angels na figurines...

ahhh.. ngaun lng ako nhirapan mglagay ng wish list.. actualy.. khit anu its d thot that counts nmn eh. saka seryoso.. khit anu iregalo nio skin.. okay lng..prmise.. madali lng naman ako regaluhan eh.. sentimental akong tao.. gsto ko ung regalo mo mgpapaalala skin syo.. :) hehe.. ska wag na food.. ksi tumataba n daw ako. huhuhuhuhuhu.. oo nga... damn.!!

i dont want to get angry.. BUT..

2004-12-02T01:54:00.000-08:00

there's a storm... no classess ngaun... masaya! hahahaha! half day ko ksma si bestpwend... nwei.. ayun.. ang sarap ng hangin sa labas.. khit alam ko na pag hdi ako kumilos for 5 minutes, pede nkong tngayin.. yeah yeah.. shyneee. im sooo frail and fragile.. haha! yeah right.. anyway... wala lng..

bad trip ang mga taong akala mo pede mo itrust.. pero mgkkalt lng pla sila ng mga bagay na hndi totoo tungkol smin... na sobrng nakakainis... alam mo un.. tpos.. mei gana pa syang.. kung anu anu sbihin.. soo unfair... sobra... sna kasi noh.. kung naiingit ka... wag mo na kmi idamay.. kasi hndi mo alam bka kaw ung mging dahilan kaya masisira ung pagkkaibigan nmin.. which i hope nman hndi.. alam ko naman na kaya nmin toh.. i hope tlga.. :) u know who u are... i hope magising ka naman at di ka na masyado mging O.A sa buhay mo.. ikaw ung ngpapasira sa buhay mo eh... ska wag ka na sna makialam nalng sa buhay ng iba.. okei.. aun lng.

damn...

2004-12-01T06:18:00.000-08:00

bad trip ang araw na toh...as in... walng kwnta... naiinis ako.. as much as possible ayoko tlga magalit eh.. pero.. di ko pa rin magets ung point kung bkit kelngn mong ipakita sa iba.. basta.. naiirita ako.. im not the type of person na madaling magalit... i dnt intend to get mad with anyone.. and i never expected it to be you...

please lng.. ayaw ko ng may kaaway.. pero u just striked a nerve.. ayaw ko ng ganun.. seryoso.. bastusan at tablahan na tlga toh.. argh... talo nga pla kmi sa game knina.. pero ok lng.. we did our best.. at may ibubuga naman tlga kmi.. :)

ambiguity... is gone..

2004-11-29T08:51:00.000-08:00

i am now a sane person... i am enlightened.. and no longer confused... confusion is bliss... without confusion.. there will be no bliss... :) kaya.. ayun... id rather be confused.. than not be blissful... hehehe... those two compliment or rather supplement each other in my case... :) wala lng.. :) im an now enlightned...:) amazing!

pulchritude.... CONFUSION.. is bliss...

2004-11-29T08:11:00.000-08:00

hmmm.... i was just wondering.. how actions affect the decisions of people.. i mean... how does one define a certain action for a certain role in a person's life.. forgive me for my ambigouos thoughts.. but this is only for tension's sake... anyway... if ur confusion... is due to something... much more confusing.. to whom or waht will you blame your confusion??? how do u characterize a certain behavior for a certain role?!?! is there a certain norm to follow wen assuming that role... does actions constitute a different meaning... how would u actually know how someone really feels?!?!?! in a symbolic-interaction analysis... how would you define something that dont mean.. but i reality you do... i know... im a confused child.. seriously... damn... hayyy.. im sorry if you dnt understand anything that i just said?!?! i dont either... so that makes the two of us.... but still, i just thought of this.. if in this confusion.. is adjacent to my happiness.. id rathe rbe confused... that not be happy... like ignorance.. confusion is bliss... only better.. :)

la lng.. kabangan..

2004-11-23T05:43:00.000-08:00

ang weird.. wala akong ginagawa ngaung week.. so technically.. rest week... hayyy.. buti nlng... ATLEAST I CN SLEEP NORMALLY... as in ung hndi 3 ng madaling araw.. and wake up at 6 30.. haha! natapos ko n din engtwo.. so wala nko gnagawa.. sak ung sa chem... i ahvent really started studying pa.. tomorrow. nlng ng alge.. pero i have to study in alge dinpla.. ahhaha! anu ba ayn... hayyyy.. nfefeel ko n bumabalik na sa normal ang mundo ko.. naka 93 ako sa math at 90 sa botany.. chem nlng tlga ang problema ko... waaaahhh!!!! nooooo!!!! pleaseee... chem.... hayyy..i cnt really afford to fail chem.. seriously... if i fail chem, i will transfer schools na!!! huhuh.. please dnt let me fail chem.. please lord.. hayyy...i hope my grade in the last exam was high to compensate for my failures... oooooooooohh. argh... hayyy.. knina.. wala lng.. :) hehe.. :)

hayyy... bkit kaya gnun.. wala lng.. i feel weird..

gling si mae at gerry dito knina.. si mae.. prng bliw... di naman mrunong mgyosi... parang timang. hinihipan lng yung yosi.. ang in... ang labo... haahhaha!

hayyy.. nmimiss ko na bestpwend ko... :) la lng.. :)

anu nga pla ung pwede kong iregalo!??!?! ahhhh!??!?! ookay... may exchnage gft ang blck nmin.. asteeg.. :)... love my block.. so much..

2004-11-22T05:26:00.000-08:00

nov 20-21

tapat teambuilding... sobrang saya at bangag!!! the ride going to pansol... was bumoy.. literally.. and we had a lot of stop overs,.. hehe.. it was fun! we stoped at mcdo... then at someplace where we ate dinner.. then. yosi.. haha.. tpos we arrived na at the place.. and i was friggin dizzy coz of the stupid driver.. he was drivng soo damn fast! i felt like puking wen i stepped outside.. damn... tpos when we were in the room. i was soo bngag na sa room. i kept screaming... and shouting... and stuff... hahah! i just called my bestfrend.. tpos matino nko... :) hehehhe.. galing tlga ng bestpwend ko! :) anyway.. tpos we swam hangng mga late na.. tpos we drank... and i just drank half a beer.. i never liked strong ice.. tpos... yosi ulit.. tpos ge talk.. hahaha.. tpos kbngagan sa pool.. tpos.. i slept na at around 430... hahaha.. pero supr duper bngag pa rin.. pero mas bangag madmi ppl.. natpos ang teambuilding.. at masaya naman sya.. eheh!

SARBEYY...

2004-11-15T06:13:00.000-08:00

Sino sa mga ex mo ang hindi mo makakalimutan?
--- cguro ung first ksi frst love never dies.. ska ung last ksi sobrng sama ng gnawa nya skin!!!

Gano kayo katagal?
-- ung una.. 6 months... ung last.. 10 months..

Bakit kayo nag break?
--- un last nlnga.. ksi gago sya... aun na un.. gago tlga... at ako naman ay isng dakilang TNgA!

May third party ba?
--- kaya nga sya gago eh.. hehe.. oo madami.. hndi lng third.. fourth.. fifth.. ewn!

Naka get over ka na ba?
--- oo naman! ako pa!!! pero kinukulit pa rin nya ako paminsan minsan..

May theme song kayo?
--- wala.. kinalimutan ko na.. matagal na..

May gf/bf na cia ngayon?
--- alam ko meron na eh.. kaya nga nbubuwisit ako at pinopormahan na naman ako.. bahal sya!! die!!!!

Minahal nio ba isat isa?
--- ako.. noon.. oo.. as in... sya.. ewn ko.. dmented sya... seryoso...

Meron ka na bang bago?
--- ako!?! wala.. dhil sa knya.. trauma ang inabot ko s mga lalaki.. buti nlng mei bestpwend akong sobrng bait... heeeheeeheee..

Masasabi mo bang siya ung pinakaminahal mo?
--- khit gnun.. oo.. ksi.. ewn ko.. mulat nko...sknya lng ako ngpakatanga ng gnun..

Anong meron cia na wala ang iba mong ex?
--- hndi ko din alam... perplexing tlg..

Sinaktan ka ba niya?
--- sobra!!!

Mahal mo pa cia?
--- NOPE.. asa pa sya..

Namimiss mo cia?
--- nope... do i have a reason to?

Bakit di mo siya makalimutan?
--- ksi kaibigan ko sya... at lagi ko sya nkikita.. kaya di ko makalimutn ang kagaguhan ta kakapalan ng mukha nya!

Nasabi ba niya sayo kung anong nagustuhan niya sayo?
--- simple lng daw akong tao.. hndi ako mahirap mahalin...

Ano ang hindi mo makakalimutang moments nio together?
---lht kinalimutan ko na..

Anong sasabihin mo sa kanya sakaling nabasa niya to?
---dont bother me!!!!

no more tears...

2004-11-10T07:10:00.000-08:00

im pathetic.. sooo pathetic... damnation.. i promised myslef that i wnt cry anymore about that stupid guy... i promised myself i wont let myself be affected by those past feelings... damn!!! why did i have to rememeber how weak i was... ??? why did i have to remember how stupid i was... why did i have to put myslef in all these patheticness.. i know.. there is no word as patheticness.. i dnt know why the hell i had to remember all those bad bad memoriesthat caused me to tally change my outlook in life.. there is nothing else to do... but to promise myslef agen.... I WILL NEVER CRY ABOUT YOU ANYMORe...

hugging teddy bear..

2004-11-01T07:33:00.000-08:00

argh.. wala lng.. hu do u tell wen u love sumone?!?! hoping that someone's in love wid u?!?! hu do u tell wen u love some?!?! i think i might as well tel you...
damn that radio.. LSS.. damn!! hehehe!! nkakainis.. bumili ako ng cd ng vertical horizon knina.. tpos sa kalabuan ng utak ko.. naiwan ko sya sa cd player... hayyy!! pero in fairnes.. marunoing nkong mgdrive ng automatic!! at nakaya ko sya ng 45 minutes lng!!1 from cainta to taft!!!! amazing ness!!! ehehehehhe!! wala lng..

*hugging teddy bear agen..*

hayyy... wala lng tlga..

WHut - Eh - Vehr

2004-10-29T09:40:00.000-07:00

is it a crime to miss someone soooo badly!?! nope.. i ges not.. coz that's wat im feeling right now... unbearable urge of missing someone.. probably cos that person has been wid me everyday... :) hayyy.. theses are the times when i wish that school would never end... coz im sure gonna miss that person...really.. hug teddy bear agen...

i played a crappy game.. not myself.. could someone please.. boink me in the head wid the ball!!! seriously!!! a crappy gme.. really crappy...

hayyy.. school work is mounting.. and im soo tamad... REYIA!!! wake up... ur suppose to be an alien this term... ur supposed to get high grades... well the only high grade that u could get was in botalab, alge, trigbio, PE, and inolab.... o please dnt fail chem and botany.. hayyy.. amazingly... my 2 long tests in alge amounted to a 3...would u believ that?!?! weirdness... grrr.. hehe... wen will i get a 4.0.. or a 3.5 atleast?!?!? ( karirin and word problems.. ) hehehehe!

hayyy.. im still missing someone.... so weird.... so many ipis!!! i will study trig bio na pla.. o cge na nga.. later na nga lng.. or tomrow na..tamad ako.. argh.. :) ehhehe!!

mga happenings....

2004-10-24T05:08:00.000-07:00

okay.. it has been.. exctly 11 days since i last posted here... my blog has been very stagnant... and i guess i just lack the patience and time... to write... hayy.. im soo lazy.. okay.... recap og the things that has been happening..

october 15

dapt buong block.. as venue.. at ngiinuman..cz we were expecting our chem exams.. pero it wasnt given yet.. so ayun.. wala.. ngbilliards nlng kmi.. at sobrng hndi nko marunong... ngeeee!!!!

October 19 and 20
okay... ito ang isa sa mga pinamadramng araw sa buhay ko... grabe... dhil sa katngahan ng isang taong nangangalang charston so.. ngaway kmi ng bestfrend ko dhil sa knya... grabe tlga.. wish ko lng hndi nya toh mabasa kasi i was crying tgla... sooo pathetic.. tpos iniikot ko pa ung lasalle ng may hawak na teddy bear.. grabe tlga sa pagka pathtic kong bata... o well... hayy.. ndepress pako ng todo.. pero buti nlng ngkausap din kami.. ksi ayaoko tlgas ngaaway kmi ni gerry.. ang bait bait ksi nya tpos mgkakagalit kmi.. basta.. yoko lng.. TPOS AYUN.. ngusap kmi ng mga ewan ko.. kadramahan nmin.. tpos dpt daw sa sunday pa kmi mgbabati.. pero di ata ako matiis... hehe.. thursday pumunta sya sa condo na may dalang twix.. hehe.. peace offering.. di daw ako mtiis.. hahah.. o well. os masaya na ulit ako.. hehe...!

October 23

hehhe.. okei.. so dito sa condo ntulog ang iba kong classmates... at nug frday ng gbi,, andto kmi ngiinuman.. then i found out about the rooftop.. ang gnda.. sobra.. so dun kmi nakamtbay.. hehe. gerry went here mga 8:30.. tpos andun lng sya sa taas...hanggng 10 pa ata kming 2 dun... hehe.. ngststar gazing.. hehe! ang saya tlga! ayaw pa daw nya umlis.. at para na syang timang.. pero ok lng.. pbayaan nlng ntin sya.. hehe! tpos mga 530 gnising nya ako... ksi pupunta sya dito.. umakyt ulit akong rooftop.. at napnuod ko namn ang sunrise.. ang gnda.. sobra...tpos aun.. breakfast then cwts.. tpos i went to skul.. grbe... nashock ako sa mga bata dun.. they were all wearing make up.. as in.. tpos theyre soo skimpy.. tma ba un?!?!? hndi ata... tpos kming mga grads.. parang.. o my... ang conservative nmin.. tpos aun.. e ang boring na.. so ngtxt sya.. tpos ngkita naman kming shang... tpos aun.. ikot ikot... muntik pa kmi mkita ng ate nya.. buti namn hndi..

October 24

oo its today.. need i say more.. kakauwi lng nya gling dito.. hehe.. sunset namn ang pinanuod nmin... hehe.. at di pko ngaaral.. ng trig at botalab... hayy..

nga pla.. di ako makapgblog ksi an dmi kong bgasak.. leche... i hate botany na... damn her!!! damn tlga!!! anyway.. wala lng.. buti hndi ako ngsasawa agad sa tao.. saka enjoy naman kasama ang bestfrend ko eh... khit iniipis na kming 2... heheheh.. . term nmin... hahahaha!!!

o wel... i have to go back to my pathetic life... at magaaral ng botany at trig...nga pla.. trig is now officially my fave subject.!!1

chemistry will be the death of me..

2004-10-13T07:18:00.000-07:00

CHEM SUX!!!!!

as in super dooper sucks tlga!!1 lecheng chem!!! leche tlga.. sobra. wala nko masabi. ayun lng... LECHE!!!

medyo ksi aral na aral ako eh... tpos wala!! its over!!! damn tlga!!1 walng lumabas sa pingaraaln ko!! leche!!! leche!!!

what is death!?!

2004-10-10T06:44:00.000-07:00

death.. what is death?! is death something u can see?! is it something u can feel? death.. is not how we always perceive it to be... when someone.. something.. that we love so dearly and we value passes away.. what to we feel?! grief?! anxiety?! aht we feel is confusion... confusion because of the fact that we question why that someone has to be gone.. why this has to happen and why to us?! and then we feel that it is better this way.. so that we can atleast reassure oursleves that evrything is alright.. although that kind of mentality is just a seciruty blanket for us.. we need it to hide our weakness.. we use it to console us.. to tell us that we are strong.. even though we are not..we are not strong.. if we are strong them we wouldnt feel anything.. if we are strong.. we would not care... we are weak.. we are always weak... our weakness.. our flaws.. these things are what makes us human.. we are human in every way...

last friday night... i sat outside our garden and wept... wept infront of a wet mound of earth... consoling my self... thinking of memories.. that i had with that special one.. one who held me up when i was down.. one who made me smile with his cuteness.. one.. who forever.. will remain in my heart... i consider him to be my brother.. the one wh always makes me laugh... it was a pain to know that he was gone... such pain.. such grief..

i thought i was strong... i thought it was just a usual problem that i could laugh off... but i was wrong.. i was always wrong.. i was not strong..i was weak.. i cant laugh.. only tears are in my eyes...

death.. is not the end of life.. it is the absence of life... it is nothingness..

NAGTINDA AKO NG ISDA!!!!

2004-10-03T06:51:00.000-07:00

yessshhh!!! i had the greatest tym in CWTS last strday!!1 hahahha!! as in sobra!!! ngtinda ako ng isda.. at expert nko sa pgtanggal ng hasang!!!! yessshh!!1 im an expert... tpos sobrng amoy isda ako dba.. so hndi ako nakapgdala ng extra shirt!! may luck...!!! o well.. tpos nagkasugat pko n dumugo ng sobrng tgal!!! leche!!!wala... wala ng k... muka nkong basura... at amoy isda pa... tpos puro putik nko... at khit ano!!! pero masaya!!! wala lng... ang saya ng buong block nmin!!! 1st jeepney ride together!!! hahahaha!!! at soooper laftrip nila!!! hheheeeh!! ayown.. cge aaral nko.. byeee!!1

id rather be green than be blue!!!

2004-10-01T07:36:00.000-07:00

LASALLE!!! had a hell of a parrrttttyyy today!!!! it was soo damn hot in lasalle but every minute was worth it! haaha... nyc partying wid yah fellow lasallians!!!! ANIMO!!!

IF I COULD LIVE MY LIFE AGEN... ID CHOOSE TO BE A LASALLISTA PA RIN! .....
ID RATHER BE GREEN THAN BE BLUE!!!

Lasalle is number 1!!!!

The Crown is back in TAFT!!! Glory Days are back!!!ANIMO LASALLE!!!

ANIMO LASALLE!!! NANAKAWAN PADIN AKO NG TELEPONO!!

2004-09-30T08:29:00.000-07:00

masaya sana ang araw na toh eh... but no!!!! NANAKAWAN ako ng TELEPONO!!!! :( shet tlgA!!!! bad trip... kung sino man kumuha ng telepono.. ( as if naman mababasa nya toh... )ibalik mo na sya!!!! ung picture ni TIA!!!! wahhhhh !!!! :( iyak nko!!!! hmph!!!! anyway.... tama na.. d nmn tlga ko naiiyak... ahehehe! :)

hayyy.. asteeeg ang game knina!!! CHAMPIONS kmi!!! swerte tlga ID 104!!!o wala ng hihrit!!! bad trip ako ngaun!!!anyway high way... aun... ang saya tlga!!! ang galing ni jayvee casio... sympre.. napanigipan ko sya dti eh... hehe!!! saka si cardona rin...jayvee's 3 point shots were AMAZING!!! as in sobrang amzing tlga!!! hehehehe! hayyy!!! mei party bukas at wala akong telepono... masya ito!!! bwahahaha!!!1 :) wala nkong masabi kasi tulala ko ngaun!!! hehe!

dramahan..

2004-09-29T09:16:00.000-07:00

ewww.. ang drama.. o well.. gme ulit ng lasalle - feu bukas..sna manalo na kmi.. di na nga ko manunuod eh... hehe! :) amazing toh! haha! :) o well.. umm.. wt else?!?! wala lng.. san suspended.. pero pointless din ksi la dn naman kmi pasok ng morning.. haha!!! ayown! cge na.. naantok nko!!

I fell.... in my Dreams.... I fell...

2004-09-29T08:34:00.000-07:00

i fell..

i dunno how it happened.. but i fell..

it was one of those times.. where u wernt expecting anything good to happen..

an unexpected moment of blissful.. yet agonzing.. taciturn of events.. that lead me to feel.. incomplete...

i feel now that i am lost... wallowing in my predilection.. nearing disillusionment... and i am falling deeply into an abyss of nothingness and paranoia...

i am in need of help... but it is not availble for me.. there is nooo cure... if u can call this a disease... i fell... hard... rockbottom..into the pit of doubt... hope... and disappointment...

curiosity drove me to this crazyness... it is because of it that im feeling this queeziness in my stomach like butterflies fluttering around... i did not expect this to happen.. not to me.. not right now... but it did... o yes, it did... and now... no one's there to catch me... and i just keep on falling... and falling and falling...

i was stupid... i was in this moronic state.. i wasnt thinking... i was not myself...

CARPE DIEM... seize the day... seize the moment... dont ever let it pass... regret is a silent killer.. creeping up on ur very being... as quietly and unknowingly as possible... take it from me... i am experiencing it right now...

Dream of me.... coz im dreaming of you....

the WEIRDNESS of myself... ANIMO!

2004-09-27T07:53:00.001-07:00

okay.. alm kong wrong grammar sya.. ginagaya ko lng ang mga taga ep-eh-yu....

shet.. ang sama ko na.. pero soree tlga... EVILNESS....

okay.. so me and my blockamets went to watch the gme last sunday.. whicg unfortunately.. talo kmi... ( jinx ata ako... never na nga ako manunuod...) o well.. atleast the whole block got to bond ryt.... as in... pero isang grupo lng pla un... haha! ito na naman ako.. evilness... ayun.. so here's wat happned... LECHE tlga..

1.ANG JOLOGS... ng EP-Eh-YU..FEU..

hello... like.. manners naman po ppl... tma bng maghagis kayo ng fan sa court? bastos tlga.. and talk about your cheers... lousy tlga.. and u even had the guts to copy ours...level urselves please...and hello.. the WAVE was just for us...US...

2. Ngkalat lng nman STAR players nmin..
ookay.. dinamdam ata ni cardona ang pagkatlo niya bilng MVP, kaya medyo tgilid ang laro.. never na kming lumamang.. as in.. nkakadisheatened.. pero alm ko naman na u guys did ur best.. oks lng yun..ANIMO pa din!

3.Umapaw ang kayabangan ng FEU.. sobra...
FEU in mrt: hahaha.. mkikipagpustahan nga ako sa thursday...panalo na namna tyo!

pepsquad while loading the drums..

FEU1: Sino nga nanalo?

FEU2: TAyo ata eh.. cnu nga ba ulit?

FEU1: ahh.. Feu na pla..

DLSU pep: oo na, nananlo na kyo.. bilhin nmin eskwelahan nio eh!

hahaha.. medyo foul din tyo.. pero nkktawa pa rin..

hayyy..epekto tlga ng basketball sa buhay ng tao o..! sana tlga manalo tyo! kasi mei quiz na kmi sa trigbio sa friday!!! para walng pasok!!! yeshhh!!!! :) huurahh!!!

speaking of ... doesnt he have a really striking resemblnce to mac cardona?!

hehehe... masarap matulog ng nakangiti.. nggising ako ng maaga.. :) hayyy...TIA

ANIMO LASALLE!

Keep the Faith!

LASALLE will reign agen!

Proud to be a Lasallian nko... :)

the WEIRDNESS of myself...

2004-09-27T07:53:00.000-07:00

oo.. alam ko wrong grammar sya... gnagaya ko ang ep-eh-yu... hehehe!

shet.... anu bng nanyayari skin ngaun.. wala.. ang bad bad ko na.... ang lkas ko ng mangasar.... wahhh... evilness...

hmm... wala lng.. i keep getting this butterfly fluttery feeling in my stomach... weird.. so weird tlga... hayyy... life is sooo somplicated.... this is soooo depressing... wala lng... nkkdepress pero nkktuwa... masya mtulog ng nakangiti.. ngigising ako ng maaga... hehehe.. inolab bukas... o my!

sana talag manalo na ang lasalle.... di na nga ako manunuod kasi feeling ko ang jinx ko... wala... hehe.. sa skul nlng... ska sana manalo kmi sa gme sa thursday... weeeehh!!! hehehee!! naeexcite nko.. hayyy... * smile~smile *

yuk tlga.. this is sooo.. not like me... seryoso... reyia.. wake up...

he really has a striking resemblance to mac mac cardona...,br>
soooo weird..

hahaha.. :).. la lng... kadiri tlga..

i am beginning to hate.. EP--EH--YU!

2004-09-26T08:25:00.000-07:00

damn u ppl.. mga gayagay kayo eh.. hmph!! walng mga sariling cheers.. and could u show more discorum.. tma ba naman mgtapon ng mga fan sa may court.. bastusan ba toh.l. and u guys stink.. as in literally!!1 hmph! magsama sama kayo!!! bumalik nlng kyo sa rally nio!!!dun kayo!!!! ep-eh-yu--.. EEEEWWWWWW!!!

YESSSHHHHHH ! ! ! ! GO FOCUS 04 ! ! !

2004-09-24T07:29:00.000-07:00

yes!!! ang galing nmin!!! hahahhaha!!! nanalo kmi... sorry arden.. natalo nmin kyo... joke! wala lng... naka 14 points ako.. oweeeee!!!! hehehe!!! sa 2nd set lng un... la lng... yabng tlga! hahaha!! eewwness... haahaha!! may pagasa pa pla focus!!bwahahahaha!!!

happy bertdey ICE!!!! labya!!!

walaa nkong masabi... speechless ako... gsto ko ng mgsunday!!! weeee!!!

CHAMPIONS NA BA??!?!?

2004-09-23T06:04:00.000-07:00

final score: 58-48

nggeeee... hahaha!!! panalo na naman kmi.. babalik na naman ba ang la salle dynasty? hehehe... isang win nalang.. champions na kmi!!! ang saya.. manunuod kmi ng mga blockmates ko sa sunday!!! support tlga!!! hehehe!!! o well.. proud to be lasallian... swerte nga daw batch nmin eh.. haha!!! yak.. kapal!!!

grabeh.. nkakapagod tlga tong araw na toh.. pero ayus lng.. 1 nman pasok ko knina eh.. mei gmae pa kmi bukas.. sna makapglaro nko ng matino.. nyee.. haayy.. leche tlga.. hehe... asteeg tlga lasalle.. hehe!!! hayy.. masya lasalle.. kasi andun ang tapat...

minsan, npapaisip ako.. anu kaya kung sa ibng skul ako ngaral... sa ateneo kaya o sa UP.. mei ptutunguhan ba buhay ko? hehe.. wala lng.. sna magising ako bukas.. hehe.. botalab pla bukas... haha... wala.. wala akong gusto ni isa man sa mga teacher ko.. si sir riggs cguro papasa pa..

ito nako ngayon..... NERDOX...

masarap ang green tea ice creammmm...... YUMMMMM...

hahahah!!! wala lng.. ang lakas ng topak ko ngaun!! hehe!! :)) ayown!

ramblings... rantings.. ravings..

2004-09-21T09:23:00.000-07:00

hayyy.. after losing my notebook in botany.. w/c really depressed me... i rewrote all my notes... hayy.. anyway.. knina was inolab... haha.. super fun! pero daya ni sir!!! dapat mei plus dn kmi.. ksi early dn naman kmi natapos ah.. hayy nku!! nxt experiment nga gagalingan ko na!! para mei plus din kmi!!! grabehan tlga toh!!! its oo unfair... nauna lng sila maghugas smin eh.. :( sooo sad... any way.. wala lng..

shet.. game na pla nmin tomorrow!!! sna po LORD manalo kmi!!! please!!! at sana po hndi tambak!!! :( wala lng.. hahah!!di katulad ng 41-85 ng basketball nmin na sobrng na kakahiya!!! as in...

hayy.. wala lng... im paranoid.. un lng..

bad trip.. gusto ko ng granola bars pero di naman ako binilhan!!! wahhh!! no!!!! :(

ARCHERS... ANIMO!!!!

2004-09-19T22:44:00.000-07:00

it was sooo.. surreal..

we ruled... we conquered... we dominated...

yes.. this is the lasallian's cry..

so i ges im guessing hello finals!!! FEU.. be ready.. cz we will rock ur world!!!
hmm.. sana maging champions lasalle this year... :) wala lng..

o well.. so aun.. birthday party ni gerry bukas.. hpe itll be fun!! hehe!! :) wala lng... another bonding moment for the block... :)

patching and i went to mass knina.. :)wla lng.. i missed that crazy gurl.. haha!!!
ang dmi nming kwento!! hehe!!

o well.. next tym nlng.. tmad ako eh.. ska im reading my bota notes...

math and its complexities.. i think i need to shut up na..

2004-09-18T08:08:00.000-07:00

hayyy.. wala lng.. ang leche tlga.. they forced me to have a tutor.. damn tlga.. ngeee!!! bad trip.. as in sobra.. wala lng.. nababdtrip ako.. hayy.. ang boring ng life ko ngaun.. at bngag pako kninag nstp.. sabog.. hayyy.. oh noh!!! wala lng.. read beloe.. comment.. un lng..

hmm.. wala lng... ngtritrig bio ako nung friday.. tpos.. wala lng.. me nd mama esther were staring at the equations on the board.. tpos naisip nmin.. panu kaya naformulate mga equations na un.. how did they discover pie? cnu nman nakaisip na pag nag add ka na 1+1 e 2 nga ung sagot... panu ba tlga nabuo ang mathematical concepts? anu ang basis nya!? wala.. if math is the language of science.. hu invemted math.. kasi dba.. mathematics is the same in every country.. anywhere in the world.. it is a universal language.... pero sumtyms i cnt help but think that it is a belief based on authority.. we believe it.. but we dare not question its validity or even its existence.. coz we were taught that it was derived by some famous greek, roman.. or who wtever person... wala lng.. were did math originate?!?! how did all those formulas come about?!?! wala lng.. this may be caused by bitterness.. pero wala lng tlga? i think im being tooo critical... okay.. i think i need to shut up na...

and i thought i was just a lunatic on the loose...

2004-09-17T08:06:00.000-07:00

i was sorting through my old stuff nung high skul and i found the results of the personality test that i took.. hehe!!!

MYERS-BRIGGS TYPE INDICATOR
personality tye: ESFJ

E: Extroversion. You are probably more at homew in the outer world of people and things than in the inner wotld of ideas. Tends to socialize easily with people.
S: Sensing. YOu would probably work with known facts than look for possibilities and relationships. Focuses more on the present and reality.
F: Feeling. you probably base your judgemtns more on personal values than on personal logic. Person-oriented and cares for the feeling of others.
J: Judging. You probably like a planned, decided orderly way of life than a flexible, spontaneous way.

characteristics frequently associated with the type:

warmly enthusiastic, high spirited, ingenious, imaginative, able to do almost anything that interest them, quick with a solution for any difficulty and ready to help anyone with a problem, often rely on their ability to improvise instead of preparing in advance,can usually ind compelling reasons for whatever they want.

guys!!! tgnan nio nga if ako tlga toh.. you be the judge o me... tag or comment nlng po please... :) mwah!!

clandestine thoughts...

2004-09-17T00:08:00.000-07:00

hmm.. 12 na.. di pa din ako tapos sa gnagawa ko.. shet tlga.. di ko pa nababasa ung botany book.. wahhh!!! no!!! this cannot be!!! hayyy... patay ako!!! :( this is sooo sad tlgA!!! wala lng.. so ang lakas ulit ng trip ko.. gumawa ulit ako ng panibagong blog.. ngeee no!!! hehe!!! o weell...

blog ko for poems...

unfortunately.. ala pakong nilalagay.. hehe!! tomorrow nlnga.. hehe!!! skit ng ulo ko.. saka batok ko!!! hayy...

ayaw ko ng sched ko buaks.. pero looking forward ako sa trigbio!!! haha!!! laftrip!!

2004-09-14T16:54:00.000-07:00

KAKAGISING KO LANG....

okie.. soo gud morning to me... haha.. naamaze ako.. wala akong magawa kagabi ksi tpos nkong magaral... kaya pinakailaman ko na naman ang blog ko... haha!!! o well.. wala lng.. ang boring kasi eh... saka 9:30 pa naman ang nxt class ko.. ang boring tlga.. may 1 hour and 30 mins pko... haha.. eww.. adik nako sa chewy granola bars.. wala lng.. hehe!!! hmm.. sana payagan akong manuod ng game sa sunday.. or sa tv ko nlng papanuorin...? hehe! tv nlng!!! hehehe!!! ok na un!! finals nlng tlga ako manunuod... hehe!!! mas masaya sa tv.. may behind the scenes...

waahhh.. antok ako... sobra...

ang landi naman ng blog ko...cguro nxt month papalitan ko nlng ulit toh... hehe!

at oo.. i do not need you anymore.. daw?! hahahaha!!!

HNDI AKO NERD HA!!! la lng... haha!! nerdox daw ako?!?! haha!! o well..

i do not wnat total quietness...

2004-09-14T06:22:00.000-07:00

ANIMO LASALLE!!!

2x to beat... haha!!

wana know more?

ang galing tlga ng ARCHERS.. bilib nko... sana hndi ako mabaliw sa mga ganagawa ko...

NERD daw ako!?!?

as in NERDOX!!! hahahah!!! oo na.. wala nkong social life... now a days i find myself going home early... reading in advance.. na dhaving notes for almost ever subject... as in... introso.. binbasa ko palng ung libro.. later na ung notes... hahaha! botany tatapusin ko pa... complete n trigbio ska alge.. im i trying to kill my self? hndi naman cguro noh?! hehe! :) masaya naman mgaral eh.. pero mas masya muna matulog bgo ka mgaral.. at kumain habng ngaaral.. haha!!

hayy.. bkit ba ako tumataba sa lasalle?!?! hehe!